Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it

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I'm in my longest flatline ever curretly. It's over a month I think (stopped counting). During my earlier streaks, It will usually last for 2 weeks the most. Now I'm used to feeling "dickless". I get a light erection sometimes when I'm kissing with my girlfriend, but I dont get horny at all. I cant remember last time I was horny...maybe it was in July. Man I loved those bitches in summer clothes

 

[zander13]

Good luck on this current run my friend. My story is eerily similar to yours.

Thanks man. What's your curret situation?

I?ve had a 210 day streak, a 150, several 90 dayers. Now I?m at the point where flatlines are the only things that bother me. I?m currently in one right now (day 74).

 

[K-Dot]

Need to stop drinkng so frequently. I have first cravings for pmo in a long time. Thinking about hotties on my ex girls instagram and nudes she used to send me

 

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I did a PIED test now after 125 days of a reboot and got rock hard just by hand's touch. But I rarely get hard when making out and touching my girl. I dont know could this mean that i need stimulation to get hard or it's something i shouldnt worry about

 

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Day 127

Another wet dream last night (it was about relapse and it was so realistic, I'm glad it's only a dream ). This morning I feel like my dick is empty space

 

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Day 128 - ex girl's instagram and nudes slip

I need your advice and opinion. Last night I came home wasted - drunk and high. I browsed instagram and by accident opened my ex's profile and saw it's not set to private, so i could see her photos. There were many sexy bikini photos (ass cheeks photos) and I got urge and scrolled her instagram and than went to our inbox and started browsing shared photos to find nudes she used to send me. I felt really powerful dopamine rush, my heart started beating faster (just from seeking) and i've got instant boner. I fapped for a 10 seconds or less to one of the photos and than I came to my senses and closed everything. This whole slip maybe was 30-40 seconds long. What made me depressed is that few hours before this I were at the theatre and actresses were doing scene in a sexy dresses and I didnt feel aroused at all watching real women, but got excited as fuck when it came to photos.

What do you think how much this slip affected my reboot so far?

 

[zander13]

Think you?ll be alright. But if I were you I?d be on high alert

 

[K-Dot]

Think you?ll be alright. But if I were you I?d be on high alert

Thank you bro.
I was drunk as fuck with 0 motivation, I dont know how I had enough will power to pull the brake. Usually in these circumstances I would go on a drunk binge. Tonight i went out with my girl and It was awsome. She's such a lovely person + she's beautiful. In this moment I dont feel any desire to peek or PMO

 

[zander13]

Think you?ll be alright. But if I were you I?d be on high alert

Thank you bro.
I was drunk as fuck with 0 motivation, I dont know how I had enough will power to pull the brake. Usually in these circumstances I would go on a drunk binge. Tonight i went out with my girl and It was awsome. She's such a lovely person + she's beautiful. In this moment I dont feel any desire to peek or PMO

Dude I?m happy to hear it. Yeah man being drunk is the biggest killer for me?happy that you could still tell porn to fuck off.

 

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Day 132
I feel like i lost passion for everything I enjoyed (music, sports, etc.) and everything seems boring. I spend most of my last few days on the internet doing nothing. No urges for porn, low libido

 

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Day 133

Official fact is that alchocol is my emotional crutch.

Libido = 2/10

 

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Day 135

These days I ran in ads of half naked girls few times and few sex scenes on tv also and I got 0 urges. That's how low is my libido. Of course I didnt stare, I looked away immidiately

 

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Day 136

Yesterday I was depressed and anxious as fuck. I went out with my girlfriend she opened up about our relationship. She said that she likes me a lot and that she would be happier if I started to show that I care and reach her more, because I act a lil bit distant. At the end of the date we sat at the park and she sat in my lap while we was making out. I was so numb, I couldnt feel anything at all, guess I'm so fucked by this flatline (emotionless and dickless).

This morning  I woke up at 5 AM due to another wet dream, about relapsing to my ex girlfriend's instagram photos once again. These frequent wet dreams (they happen every 7-10 days) are killing me and they are always about relapsing.

 

[K-Dot]

On a day 136 i can tell this:
- My libido was at its best around days 35-45
- My libido was worst around days 70-80 and right now
- I had around 16-17 wet dreams (once 4 nights in a row)
- Had 0 MO sessions
- Peeked at instagram 3 times, but only once was over 20 seconds long
- Peeked at porn 0 times
- Got with my new girlfriend around day 50, didnt have chance for sex yet, but honestly I am afraid of it, because I'm not sure that I could get it up

 

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Day 142

Anxiety kills me man. I've really started to catch feelings for this girl. I always act a bit colder than I really am, just of fear that she'll pull back if I show my feelings openly. But right now she's all over me. I dont know what to do about sex, we'll be in situation to have it soon. I'm afraid that i'll have either ED or PE. Just thinking about it kicks my confidence in the balls. She's also about to get her master degree and I aint have shit in life. Music is the only thing that I do well in life and I get no money from it. I just get respect from my small fan base.

It's incredible how I felt like a god whole summer and just 3 months later I have 0 confidence and motivation

 

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Day 143

Wet dream once again. I have at least 1 wet dream almost every week

 

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Day 144
Yesterday I felt flashes of libido while looking girls on the street. I dont know is it flatline easily fading away , or the chaser effect caused by wet dream two nights ago.

 

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I tend to get boner in the begining when kissing and touching a girl, but I lose it after. I think my brain is trained for constant dopamine hits (clicking new pictures/tabs)

 

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Day 145

I would shoot myself in the dick with a shotgun right now. I cant get aroused at all. First time when I tried reboot, my PIED faded away after 30 days, now it's still here, even after 5 moths of reboot. I'm really losing hope. Fuck me, fuck porn, instagram and internet. I dont want to lose this girl over my shit

 

[zander13]

Flatlines are the fucking worst. Nothing tops feeling asexual.