Hi. I have been addicted for as long as I can remember. If I had to put a time on it I would say Freshman year of high school. It got REALLY bad sophomore year and has been snowballing ever since. I usually look at it every day for hours at a time. I am gay and have known that a long time. It has been hard going to a small christian school in the south especially when you are both gay and addicted to porn and no one knows either. All my life I have had to hide myself from everyone. Luckily, I am moving to NYC in the fall to go to college and I could not be happier to go to a place that is so accepting of the LGBTQ community. However, I am extremely worried about what I might get into up there. As of right now, I do not trust myself as far as i can throw myself when it comes to holding back sexually. Both me and my parents are afraid I will get some dude's mouth pregnant. I really want to be as clean from porn as possible so that I can have my judgement back and not have my limbic brain running my life. I have not been clean for longer than two weeks since....heck I couldn't even tell you. I am seriously SERIOUSLY addicted and I don't really know where to start.