Recent content by intuitiveintimacy

Acting out to porn knowing that it was unhealthy for me kept me in an unhappy relationship. 3 years of quitting and doing the work I finally entered a healthy relationship. The most amazing one in my life actually. But I kept going back to the porn every 2 to 3 weeks. It sabotaged a healthy...

I was at a party yesterday and it was meant to be fancy dress. I WAS THE ONLY ONE DRESSED UP! I came in a lion suit and wore a kings crown. The theme was kings and queens so I came as the lion king. The story really resonated with me... Losing a loved one, being blamed for their death. Being...

Hey there. Thanks for sharing. There may be historic sex/porn addiction in your family which makes it harder. But you can get through it. What I discovered when I was in an intimate relationship with my partner was that my primary addiction wasn't to porn, it was to orgasm. There is a book...

I just want communication with my partner even though she is on the other side. And me staying sober, away from PMO allows my heart to open fully!

Nearly a week ago I was in bed with a woman. We cuddled and we escalated things to taking our clothes off. Things got more intense with kissing, caressing.... My heart wasn't in it and I'm not sure if I am attracted to this woman or that I am just in grief. What I do know for sure is that it...

4 days without PMO. Feeling better but I noticed I had coffee today and my body reacted. Went to visit a friends grave. Just a day at a time

My partner died on the 16 February 2022 in an unexplained caravan fire. I was watching porn the night before she passed and in the morning of her passing too. I find it hard to forgive myself. Some days I wonder if I could've been there if I didn't use. That my connection to her was...

Friends. I've had a rough few days of binging on Friday and Saturday. I've had this pattern of 2 to 3 weeks of sobriety and then acting out. In that time a build up of sexual thoughts would just happen which would slowly break me down like droplets of water carving a mountain. I also have these...

I appreciate your comments friends. You are correct. In my experience, its always a better idea to have a few weeks of solid sobriety, calm mind and being before making any decision. Taking time to be on my own is always a beneficial experience. I will think about it more then... Thank You :)

Update, on Tuesday night and Wednesday morning, sadly I slipped and PMO. I let go of any shame I feel. Its a lesson learned. Its interesting to notice in myself that it only takes a split second decision to make a choice and I'm not saying I made a wrong choice but not the choice I would've...

A week sober no PMO. For the last 2.5 years its been periodical. In 2019 after getting back in to relationships with 3 years of near celibacy my urges was coming back slowly so every few month of weeks I would act out. Then it would be every 3 - 4 weeks, then to every 2 weeks. But body is...

Cutting a long story short, I'm 35. Started PMOing since 12. Really got bad at Uni when I had my own laptop and broadband internet. No social life, no girlfriend, severe social anxiety. In my early 20's I developed PIED. It was a KILLER to my self esteem and my ability to have sex. By 24...