To Swerve Might Make More Dead
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Well, that was a week's worth.
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Blah432 said:
Well, I did run some initial figures and found that, even with measley conversion rates, I could be making $6,000-35,000 a month if the trailer thing for my book works out.
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Not a whole lot to say. Not much of note. Went and saw Sin City last night. Today I wrote 4.5k words for my book. If I could keep up this rate, I could have 150k words in a month. 
Am feeling a little down right now, but not too bad. Haven't gotten out and had any social interaction outside of work for a while, and I'm feeling it. I need to get out and do something. It's just tough, because I can't drink on my diet, and I can't really eat out. Kinda limits my options.
I think I'm going to a concert on Saturday. So, that'll be a nice change of pace.
Overall, I'm killing it. I'm smiling all the time. Laughing. Generally having a good time. Enjoying work a lot more than I ever have. Feel more energized (which is probably the diet.) The only thing that's really sucked is that they've switched me to mornings from working closing shifts, and my body just doesn't want to adjust (though, I certainly enjoy getting home earlier.)
We'll see. I'm creeping up on the two month mark. Have had a few urges recently, but nothing spectacular. It's hard to believe that it's been so long already. Seems like I've done so much more living in such a short amount of time.
Am feeling a little down right now, but not too bad. Haven't gotten out and had any social interaction outside of work for a while, and I'm feeling it. I need to get out and do something. It's just tough, because I can't drink on my diet, and I can't really eat out. Kinda limits my options.
I think I'm going to a concert on Saturday. So, that'll be a nice change of pace.
Overall, I'm killing it. I'm smiling all the time. Laughing. Generally having a good time. Enjoying work a lot more than I ever have. Feel more energized (which is probably the diet.) The only thing that's really sucked is that they've switched me to mornings from working closing shifts, and my body just doesn't want to adjust (though, I certainly enjoy getting home earlier.)
We'll see. I'm creeping up on the two month mark. Have had a few urges recently, but nothing spectacular. It's hard to believe that it's been so long already. Seems like I've done so much more living in such a short amount of time.
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fugu said:
Thanks!
*thumbs up*
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Hey! It's been going super well. Almost to well. Been way to busy to post.
I'm down about 20 pounds total. And my book is at 25,000 words. And I've started a GiveIt100/YouTube channel that I post on every day. It's a lot of crazy shit that keeps me busy.
I'm also starting to do more planning for a prematurity project on our property, including writing a grant for a pond install.
I'm down about 20 pounds total. And my book is at 25,000 words. And I've started a GiveIt100/YouTube channel that I post on every day. It's a lot of crazy shit that keeps me busy.
I'm also starting to do more planning for a prematurity project on our property, including writing a grant for a pond install.
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Post. Blame my phone.
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UPDATE: Still going strong. Been feeling a bit of depression this week after making good progress on my book. Hopefully it's not too long-lived, but it is stalling progress on my book.
Have been getting really strong morning erections and "normal" fantasies. Feels like my body is finally normalizing, and maybe this shift is tied to my depression. I really want my friend to visit so I can get off with a real person. Perhaps I'm thinking about it too much. Wouldn't really be news for me.
I'm down about 21 pounds since I first mentioned weight loss (at the time of the beer fest.) I wrapped up my first set of Dietbets today and it looks like I'll be winning about $374 according to the current results, but people have until tomorrow at midnight to submit their final weigh-ins, so that number could go down a bit. Also started my second back of Dietbets today with a bet of $175 dollars. As long as it keeps paying for all of this delicious food, I'll be satisfied. (And since I'm too poor to lose money, it's certainly motivating me to lose the weight.)
Went to the huge Asian market this past weekend and bought a ton of greens (as well as rabbit, duck, wild boar, cuttlefish, a few different types of fish, and other random animal bits.) Greens are my low carb friends. Got a couple different specimens referred to as Chinese spinach, some lime leaves, Chinese celery, pea shoots, and other odds and ends. Made a rabbit stew with some red amaranth leaves, enoki mushrooms, red curry past, fish sauce, and homemade beef broth.
Today, since I won my dietbet, I decided to treat myself to a cheat day after work. Whipped up a batch of my grandmother's banana pudding, went to Mexican food and had the Mazatlan special (carne asada, chicken enchilada, chile rellenos, beans, rice, and guac) which I'm currently trying to force myself to finish. I'll feel like shit in the morning, but it was one hell of a celebration. (Don't forget the margaritas... lots of margaritas.)
Anyway. That's about it that's new. Starting some new gardening projects, hopefully. Got new roommates moving in. There will be seven of us total as of tomorrow.
Oh, I guess I did forget one important bit.
The female roommate that I've mentioned in the past is being a total cunt.
So, the story is that there's this chick who tried to use me to fly her up so she could fuck my roommate and my best friend... basically every but me. She was a total cunt besides. A generally deplorable person. Well, because my roommate is a bitch and only cares about herself at the expense of everyone else, has offered to let the aforementioned chick stay here this weekend. Even though I was asked if it was okay and I said no. Because it apparently doesn't matter if you're a total bitch as long as you make the effort to ask first. Oh, I failed to mention that the reason my roommate is being a disrespectful cunt is because she wants to fuck said chick.
I don't know if any of you guys know anything about hiding bodies, but I might need help this weekend.
I already told my female roommate's husband that she's paying for a me to stay in a hotel room if the unwelcome guest doesn't A) leave me the fuck alone, and B) keep her fucking clothes on.
He was already looking up local options.
We'll see.
Pretty sure she's here already. I'm hiding in my room, though I need to go get water.
Oh, and I got new 2700 lumen light bulbs for my bedroom. Two of them. It's like having my own sun.
Have been getting really strong morning erections and "normal" fantasies. Feels like my body is finally normalizing, and maybe this shift is tied to my depression. I really want my friend to visit so I can get off with a real person. Perhaps I'm thinking about it too much. Wouldn't really be news for me.
I'm down about 21 pounds since I first mentioned weight loss (at the time of the beer fest.) I wrapped up my first set of Dietbets today and it looks like I'll be winning about $374 according to the current results, but people have until tomorrow at midnight to submit their final weigh-ins, so that number could go down a bit. Also started my second back of Dietbets today with a bet of $175 dollars. As long as it keeps paying for all of this delicious food, I'll be satisfied. (And since I'm too poor to lose money, it's certainly motivating me to lose the weight.)
Went to the huge Asian market this past weekend and bought a ton of greens (as well as rabbit, duck, wild boar, cuttlefish, a few different types of fish, and other random animal bits.) Greens are my low carb friends. Got a couple different specimens referred to as Chinese spinach, some lime leaves, Chinese celery, pea shoots, and other odds and ends. Made a rabbit stew with some red amaranth leaves, enoki mushrooms, red curry past, fish sauce, and homemade beef broth.
Today, since I won my dietbet, I decided to treat myself to a cheat day after work. Whipped up a batch of my grandmother's banana pudding, went to Mexican food and had the Mazatlan special (carne asada, chicken enchilada, chile rellenos, beans, rice, and guac) which I'm currently trying to force myself to finish. I'll feel like shit in the morning, but it was one hell of a celebration. (Don't forget the margaritas... lots of margaritas.)
Anyway. That's about it that's new. Starting some new gardening projects, hopefully. Got new roommates moving in. There will be seven of us total as of tomorrow.
Oh, I guess I did forget one important bit.
The female roommate that I've mentioned in the past is being a total cunt.
So, the story is that there's this chick who tried to use me to fly her up so she could fuck my roommate and my best friend... basically every but me. She was a total cunt besides. A generally deplorable person. Well, because my roommate is a bitch and only cares about herself at the expense of everyone else, has offered to let the aforementioned chick stay here this weekend. Even though I was asked if it was okay and I said no. Because it apparently doesn't matter if you're a total bitch as long as you make the effort to ask first. Oh, I failed to mention that the reason my roommate is being a disrespectful cunt is because she wants to fuck said chick.
I don't know if any of you guys know anything about hiding bodies, but I might need help this weekend.
I already told my female roommate's husband that she's paying for a me to stay in a hotel room if the unwelcome guest doesn't A) leave me the fuck alone, and B) keep her fucking clothes on.
He was already looking up local options.
We'll see.
Pretty sure she's here already. I'm hiding in my room, though I need to go get water.
Oh, and I got new 2700 lumen light bulbs for my bedroom. Two of them. It's like having my own sun.
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Alright. I came this morning.
I've been getting morning wood regularly, and found that I could finally get hard with touch alone. My confidence and sexual prospects have been improving, but I'm so sensitive now that I've more or less reset, that I was concerned about lasting. I started edging a couple days ago to make sure I could last in bed. Went a couple hours the first night, about half an hour yesterday morning before I got interrupted, maybe an hour or so last night before I passed out, and two and a half hours this morning before I accidentally pushed too close to the edge.
There was no porn involved, and it wasn't for the sake of pleasure. It wasn't intentional. I don't feel a chaser coming on. I don't feel that it violates the spirit of my reboot, and I feel that it's more important that my counter represents the number of days I've gone without porn and without intentional MO for pleasure. At this point, I don't feel the need to reset it. But I am going to cut out edging until I hit at least the 90 day mark.
The good news is that I had a friend visit from out of state. We cuddled for almost 12 hours. o_0 And we made out. And only because I've gone without PMO for so long did I have the confidence to make a move.
That's as far as it went because she didn't think her boyfriend would be comfortable with us going any further than that, and I respect that. Still, we were both pretty giddy about it.
That experience is probably what allowed me to push too far while edging this morning.
Anyway. 21 more days, no edging, and I'll re-evaluate.
Going without porn is like going through puberty again. o_0
I've been getting morning wood regularly, and found that I could finally get hard with touch alone. My confidence and sexual prospects have been improving, but I'm so sensitive now that I've more or less reset, that I was concerned about lasting. I started edging a couple days ago to make sure I could last in bed. Went a couple hours the first night, about half an hour yesterday morning before I got interrupted, maybe an hour or so last night before I passed out, and two and a half hours this morning before I accidentally pushed too close to the edge.
There was no porn involved, and it wasn't for the sake of pleasure. It wasn't intentional. I don't feel a chaser coming on. I don't feel that it violates the spirit of my reboot, and I feel that it's more important that my counter represents the number of days I've gone without porn and without intentional MO for pleasure. At this point, I don't feel the need to reset it. But I am going to cut out edging until I hit at least the 90 day mark.
The good news is that I had a friend visit from out of state. We cuddled for almost 12 hours. o_0 And we made out. And only because I've gone without PMO for so long did I have the confidence to make a move.
That's as far as it went because she didn't think her boyfriend would be comfortable with us going any further than that, and I respect that. Still, we were both pretty giddy about it.
That experience is probably what allowed me to push too far while edging this morning.
Anyway. 21 more days, no edging, and I'll re-evaluate.
Going without porn is like going through puberty again. o_0