I@andothis
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I'm feeling like a complete loser right now! Even though I know that all things will work out for the better, right now completely SUCKS!
I spent 16+ years of my married life deceiving my wife about my porn addiction. Even though she never directly asked me about it, I secretly, behind her back, deceived her and kept the truth from her for all of these years. I LIED!
Now, my 14 year old son seems to be in a habit of lying to me and his mom about different things and he doesn't even seem to care about the effects it has on our relationship as father and son. Oh, how our sins will find us out.
Here's the other problem I'm having. I am a Christian man with a vary dark past pertaining to various sexual sins. I have conquered a lot of those sins with the help of mentors, counselors and the Word of God. I know that I am forgiven and that the Grace of God covers me. However, I am completely embarrassed about my past sexual sins, and now trying to gain victory over pornography and what type of an example I have been for Christ.
I feel so ashamed and guilty of allowing such crud to come into my life, marriage, family and house. What an absolute failure I have been in this area of sexual sin and lying. It's apparent I have been an incredibly bad example to my son.......
I'm finding it hard to identify a place where I can confront my son about lying, and to do it with grace, while knowing my wife is in the other room and possibly thinking how can he (me) talk to our son about lying when he has been doing it to me for over 16 years?
Thanks for letting me vent.
I spent 16+ years of my married life deceiving my wife about my porn addiction. Even though she never directly asked me about it, I secretly, behind her back, deceived her and kept the truth from her for all of these years. I LIED!
Now, my 14 year old son seems to be in a habit of lying to me and his mom about different things and he doesn't even seem to care about the effects it has on our relationship as father and son. Oh, how our sins will find us out.
Here's the other problem I'm having. I am a Christian man with a vary dark past pertaining to various sexual sins. I have conquered a lot of those sins with the help of mentors, counselors and the Word of God. I know that I am forgiven and that the Grace of God covers me. However, I am completely embarrassed about my past sexual sins, and now trying to gain victory over pornography and what type of an example I have been for Christ.
I feel so ashamed and guilty of allowing such crud to come into my life, marriage, family and house. What an absolute failure I have been in this area of sexual sin and lying. It's apparent I have been an incredibly bad example to my son.......
I'm finding it hard to identify a place where I can confront my son about lying, and to do it with grace, while knowing my wife is in the other room and possibly thinking how can he (me) talk to our son about lying when he has been doing it to me for over 16 years?
Thanks for letting me vent.