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Journey to a better me
- Thread starter Jake323
- Start date
4/28/17
Felt kind of depressed and confused today. Also worried about the future, I sometimes feel as if no matter what I do, I can't seem to accomplish what I want to. Oh well, just a short time that it's been happening anyways. My mind keeps looking for reasons to PMO, but I keep labeling it for what it is and not pursuing the urges and doing other things that are probably better for me instead, that's how I should measure progress.
Felt kind of depressed and confused today. Also worried about the future, I sometimes feel as if no matter what I do, I can't seem to accomplish what I want to. Oh well, just a short time that it's been happening anyways. My mind keeps looking for reasons to PMO, but I keep labeling it for what it is and not pursuing the urges and doing other things that are probably better for me instead, that's how I should measure progress.
5/8/17
Damn, having social anxiety for so long really sucks ass. Oh well, everybody has shit to deal with I guess.I went to the mall again to try and ask for a few girls' number, but my anxiety was really terrible and I kept getting caught up in the story my mind was telling me. I need to stay in the present moment and stop thinking that having a bunch of women all over me will make me happy, because it won't.
Damn, having social anxiety for so long really sucks ass. Oh well, everybody has shit to deal with I guess.I went to the mall again to try and ask for a few girls' number, but my anxiety was really terrible and I kept getting caught up in the story my mind was telling me. I need to stay in the present moment and stop thinking that having a bunch of women all over me will make me happy, because it won't.
5/9/17
Today was an awful day, I almost ended up relapsing. I had decided that I was going to go home and PMO, but something inside me told me to not do it because of the guilt and shame I would feel for doing it, I even started to rub my dick a little bit, but I pulled myself out of it. I have felt depressed, lonely, and worthless for the past few days. It's so shitty too when society says that feeling depressed or angry is not ok. Like, you're a man, you're supposed to show no emotion and be fearless and brave. It's bullshit, but oh well I guess. I'm not going to believe it, it may always be there, but I won't believe it.
Today was an awful day, I almost ended up relapsing. I had decided that I was going to go home and PMO, but something inside me told me to not do it because of the guilt and shame I would feel for doing it, I even started to rub my dick a little bit, but I pulled myself out of it. I have felt depressed, lonely, and worthless for the past few days. It's so shitty too when society says that feeling depressed or angry is not ok. Like, you're a man, you're supposed to show no emotion and be fearless and brave. It's bullshit, but oh well I guess. I'm not going to believe it, it may always be there, but I won't believe it.