fyg, I think what happens is that we get very annoyed when someone keeps relapsing and we forget where we were not so long ago. But it is frustrating! We all want everyone to succeed, despite the fact that this addiction is tough as nails to beat.
When I was knee deep in the addiction I would come on the forums and lie and say everything was ok when I was relapsing, or run away when I relapsed and not post. I get it, it's a bitch.
Oh I was/am definitely a P addict, no doubt at that. As addicted as they come, but because I know that it makes me safer, there is no in between, there is no 'just this once'. A relapse means going back into the pit for me.
Complete sobriety for me is no PMO, no MO, no PME.
I've not watching porn, while jerking my dick in almost 11 months.
I have very occasionally fapped my dick for a few seconds just to see if it's still there.
I have also watched P...but not on a laptop or computer which is how I always used to when I was jerking it.
I have only watched P on my iPhone here and there (handful of times over 11 months) when I was feeling low (withdrawals), and frankly it didn't arouse me 95% of the time, when that 5% hit I quickly shut it down. Those view sessions lasted perhaps a few minutes at most.
Now, when I was in PME (porn, masturbation, edging) mode I would PME for hours and hours and hours, daily.
Quite a change to say the least.
I am working on not purposely ever watching P, and I think I'm pretty much there...because I don't fap to it, my brain has learned it's NOT arousing, seriously. Crazy, but true.
Also, I limit my O's, and will continue to do so until I feel my brain is ready for a regular schedule...figure it will be 3 to 9 months until it is ready.