Starting Now Limp to Rock

[MarcusSecret]

I really like your progress Jack.

This book helped me a lot:

http://legacy.rebootnation.org/index.php?topic=11997.0

If you have time in between school it will be helpful.

Make sure you spend a lot of time outside the house, when you don't watch porn you'll see that everything else will be a lot more fun.

 

[Jack Can]

Day 26

So this was my first day back at school, and it was a pretty fantastic. First things first I went to the gym and lifted weights. Then I made a huge breakfast with like 6 eggs and a sandwich, gotta get that protein in lol. From there I went to check out the solar eclipse, and she was there.

A cool girl I met sometime last year, but things were never right for me to make a move on her (I was being a wuss). I talked to her for awhile to find out where the glasses were and then we walked to go find them. Turns out we also had the same next class and we sat together. I got her number so I'll be trying to get a date with her later.

On a sidenote, I have about 3 tinder girls that want to "hangout" with me, but I'm just too nervous I won't be able to get hard so I keep pushing them off and rescheduling. I'm 26 days into my reboot, should I just say fuck it and test er' out?

 

[Jack Can]

Day 27

Trigger Warning

I don't think I'm going to make it to day 30, I met this girl off tinder and she really wants to bang. She keeps sending me messages about how she really wants me to massage her and how she's so bored, not to mention all the pics she keeps taking of her with her titties basically spilling out of her shirt.

I really want to hit the 30 day mark though because ED fucking sucks, it's embarrassing, you feel like a piece of shit, and just like a general failure as a man.

I feel like if I can't hit at least the 30 day mark then I am not taking this seriously and this will be a problem for the rest of my life.

I mean, I won't PMO, but I kind of just wanted to be abstinent. Actually, I just want to have sex normally but I heard being abstinent is the best way to do it if you have PIED.

 

[Jack Can]

Day 28

Alright, so I'm 90% sure that the eclipse girl likes me, she stuck around after class and we talked for like 5 minutes. I didn't ask her out or anything (couldn't think of anything I'd want to do), but it's good knowing I have her available to hangout with me if I get bored lol, she seems really nice.

Date ideas? I'm thinking about going to an ice cream store would be cool, but I'm definitely open to other opinions.

I lifted this morning and it went really bad, I feel like I'm getting weaker actually. I think I'm going to start all my lifts at 65 lbs. and then just increase the weight by 5 lbs a workout until I can't anymore. I would really like to be stronger, y'know to be able to move stuff and just be more useful.

My classes just started and I got all the syllabi, so I'm going to go and write all the titles of the books I need to buy.

Almost forgot, this is a reboot journal haha, my urges have been pretty much nonexistent the past week. Protip: for guys who use their laptops in bed and lay it on their chests/stomach area, it can push on your bladder and give you a tingling sensation around your pelvis which can encourage PMO. Get up and go to the bathroom and then be in a more seated position if you need to.

 

[Ill be back]

I am 21 years old and everytime I go to have sex with a girl I don't get hard enough. One girl last week was literally giving me a BJ for like 6 minutes and I didn't get fully erect.

Thus, I gave up porn 2 weeks ago to try to stop this problem. However, when I read more from this website I learned that you are also supposed to give up jerking off which will be difficult. I get some serious urges to do that about every 4 days.

But I am starting now! no more PMO, I'll post updates of how I'm doing on here.

Man, I had the same thing happen to me.  It was frustrating and embarrassing. Let's do this! Or not for that matter. lol

 

[Ill be back]

" am 21 years old and everytime I go to have sex with a girl I don't get hard enough. One girl last week was literally giving me a BJ for like 6 minutes and I didn't get fully erect."

You're having too much sex, watching too much porn, or you might be a cocoon about to burst into a wonderful butterfly of homosexuality.

If you've had multiple partners that you've had sex with my best guess is that you've had so much heterosexual sex you are craving homosexual sex now.

It's okay, homosexuality is very popular now--so if that is what's holding you back destroy those thoughts!

I'm not sure if this is a joke. Lol.

 

[Jack Can]

Day 29

Now I don't know if this whole withdrawal thing just skipped over me or what, but I really haven't had too many problems since giving up PMO. Honestly, I haven't had very much brain fog, blue balls (I've never had it at all, kinda makes me want it), or even a wet dream (I would like to have one lol). It's been pretty easy, I just have to be conscious of the feelings I get when something is pushing on my bladder.

I have been wanting to get more involved with the church this year so I went to this s'mores event that a church group was having. I met a cute girl there and I was talking to her for awhile, turns out she is a Wiccan which totally detracts from my wanting to be more religious haha. I don't know what a Wiccan is doing at a christian event but she was really nice to talk with.

Then there was the girl I was talking with on Monday that I wussed out on asking out because "I couldn't think of anything", well anyways, I have class with her tomorrow so I'll see if she's free to get ice cream or something this weekend. I also want to be her study partner for this class though because it is pretty difficult, I'll just play it by ear I guess.

And then the tinder girl I'm talking to is starting to get pretty annoying, she really wants to talk and be with me, but I think I'd rather just be alone than with her. She sends me like 4 snapchats in a row without me even responding. I guess usually I'd be fine with that but she's not that attractive. I think I'll see what's going on with the first 2 girls before I continue talking to the tinder girl.

I'm going to see if my dick will work with a woman after the 30 day mark, if it doesn't then that fucking sucks but I guess I'll just get more involved with the church.

 

[Jack Can]

Day 30

Hell yeah! 1 month, it feels great knowing that I made it this far. You know, people talk about the great benefits of giving up PMO, but personally the biggest thing I recieved from the whole nofap, noporn experience was a whole lot of extra time. I have been able to stick to some of my other goals because of all of the extra time. I mean, I would usually spend about 3 hours PMOing or engaging in fantasies ever day, this includes finding the perfect video to wank to.

There are some girls that have been wanting to hangout with me though so I'll try and see if they would be down to go on a date with me. I'll definitely try to take it slower this time than with my first two attempts with girls, maybe we'll just
listen to music and talk in my room (not much to do in my town).

I feel like since it is Day 30 now I feel good enough to add some more things to my daily routine. Right now I just lift 3 times a week and I'm going to tack on studying for a bare minimum of 2 hours a day (I don't usually study much at all). This will hopefully make my schooling less stressful and make me happier. I'm really excited for this because I've never had much structure in my life, this reboot thing is actually one of the firsts!

 

[Ill be back]

Good job! Keep it up! Have you noticed any physiological changes?

 

[MarcusSecret]

Day 27

Trigger Warning

I don't think I'm going to make it to day 30, I met this girl off tinder and she really wants to bang. She keeps sending me messages about how she really wants me to massage her and how she's so bored, not to mention all the pics she keeps taking of her with her titties basically spilling out of her shirt.

I really want to hit the 30 day mark though because ED fucking sucks, it's embarrassing, you feel like a piece of shit, and just like a general failure as a man.

I feel like if I can't hit at least the 30 day mark then I am not taking this seriously and this will be a problem for the rest of my life.

I mean, I won't PMO, but I kind of just wanted to be abstinent. Actually, I just want to have sex normally but I heard being abstinent is the best way to do it if you have PIED.

Just tell m.
Nervousness is an as big contributor to ED as porn addiction.
So yes, meet them right away, with the mind set of fuck it I'm just gonna have a good time with this hot girl. Be in the moment, close your eyes, focus on the feeling of her skin.
Now, if you are still nervous or still thinking about fantasies and you're not able to fuck. Just tell her!! Big relief, just tell her. You're nervous cause you've gone through porn addiction. As long as you are confident she we'll be understanding, you can show her Gabe videos to make her take it seriously.

You'll be fine man.

 

[Jack Can]

Day 33

I realize now that I waste too much time playing stupid computer games. No matter how much you play them there is always more to "accomplish", and a more distant goal to reach. It really feels like a hamster wheel that isn't even necessarily fun. I have played these games since the 3rd grade, I have been drained by these games since the 3rd grade. It is kind of like Gabe says about porn, no matter how much you do it, it will never love you back.

I am quitting all computer games now. I unsubscribed from all the channels on my youtube account and deleted all of the notepads with my game goals on them. Honestly, this has been a more persistent addiction in my life than pornography. I have spent probably on average 4 hours a day playing them since I was in 3rd grade. I know that I will have to fill that void with something else though and I'm not sure what yet, there is a business fraternity at my school that I'm thinking of joining but that probably won't fill up 100% of my downtime.

I guess I'll just be super open minded to new activities until that time is filled up...

 

[Jack Can]

Day 34

Had a sex dream last night and woke up with 105% MW. yeah, It was hurting it was so full haha.

I think when I suffered from PIED it was a combo of my porn usage and also the fact that I've never had a real girlfriend that I was able to have sex with on the reg. So I think what I really need to do is find a girl I can just hang out with for awhile and talk with. Y'know.. slowly work up to the more serious stuff.

A cuddle partner also sounds pretty good, to just be able to lay down next to a girl and talk about stuff with. I've always liked star gazing with people, so cuddling seems like the perfect activity for me.

Another cool thing I did today was study for 3 hours, my study habits are sub-par so that was really good for me. I will try and keep that going, it feels really good to be on top of my schoolwork. I have a study partner for one class and I hope to get more from different classes.

 

[Jack Can]

Day 35

Woohoo! so last night I was with a girl I met off Bumble and we kinda hit it off. Long story short we didn't have sex, but I did notice I was getting erect when I was kissing her! I'm pretty sure this didn't happen with my previous encounters.

I'm pretty psyched about this and will most definitely be hitting her up later to see if she is ready to take it further. I want to see if I'm functional again god damn it!

Anyways I had fun, I think one of my main problems was putting sex on such a high pedestal and thinking that's all I want. People are pretty cool if you just take the time to learn about them.

 

[Jack Can]

Day 36

So in terms of not viewing porn or masturbating, my life is going great. I don't have any overly dramatic urges tempting me to return to my old habit of PMO. The only really negative thing from this whole situation is I have a whole bunch of extra time on my hands. Time that, as of late, I've just been completely wasting down the youtube whirlpool and even looking at this site. I am really going to try hard to fill that time up with new activities.

I searched around on the web and found some new potential hobbies that look fun to me, and when I have nothing going on I will do. Here is the list: Jog, Stronglifts 5x5, Learn some German Words or Phrases, Read, Walk, Nap, Watch a movie, Play pool, Slackline, 4-ball juggling, Chess. I know it will be nearly impossible to completely take away my leisure time, so I will just try to limit my computer time to 2 hours a day. I will continue to journal my life at the end of the day because I really enjoy to think back about my day and review my progress from time to time.

 

[Jack Can]

Day 37

I fucking hate this. I tried to have sex again last night and it was a miserable, no good, heart wrenching experience for me. (TRIGGER WARNING) I met this girl at a bar and I walked with her back to her apartment and started making out with her, from there she started giving me a BJ and I got about 90% erect. Anyways, from there I tried to penetrate and I just couldn't get it in, I guess I just couldn't get hard enough. It isn't even scary for me to pull out my uncircumcised penis now because I feel like I have more odd problems to deal with than that, which is a really good thing because being uncut used to make me really nervous.

From a positive note: I guess I did get a lot harder than I was with the girl 37 or 38 days ago. Even trying to be positive, it's pretty fucking depressing...

 

[Jack Can]

@retro: Hey man, from reading your posts you seem very informed about rebooting. How long would you recommend before trying to have sex again? I think I could pretty much try again whenever

 

[Jack Can]

Day 39

Wow! I have just had 0 motivation to do anything lately. I literally sat on my computer for like 5 hours today. I was supposed to work out, clean my room, and study for a bit, maybe hangout with some people... Nope. I just need a fire lit under my ass so I feel a desire to do things.

Do you guys have any tips to start living life more?

 

[Jack Can]

Day 40

Holy cow, that's a long time. I didn't realize when it stopped, but I don't have porn fantasies with women I see out in public anymore. I was in the cafeteria at school today and I told my friend something along the lines of "Dang dude, there are a ton of beautiful girls in here!" and I didn't think sexually about it once. I didn't have to stop myself from having sexual thoughts either, they just weren't there. Maybe my mind just shifted from thinking like that.

Is that scenario a function of having a low libido or is it normal not to have overt sexual thoughts about girls?

And the libido is something that is supposed to come back with the reboot right? or should I be doing things to increase my libido?

 

[Jack Can]

Day 43

I feel like I have been in a flatline for like 2 weeks now and it is very concerning. I haven't had MW in 2 weeks, maybe it's because I haven't been getting the most quality sleep (around 6-7 hours a night). I have had absolutely 0 urges to PMO though, that part of my life is behind me and I don't even think about it even more. That is actually kind of weird because I am talking to more girls now than I ever have in my whole life haha, you would think the urge to PMO would come from talking to girls.

On Day 37 of my reboot I met this girl at a bar and couldn't get it up (in my journal). Since then I've just been trying to avoid her so I don't have to have any awkward conversations with her about it, but today I found out she's in my class. And even worse, she got put into my group for a group project. I'm pretty upset about this because I don't want to confront her about this but I also don't want to be around her ever again. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to deal with it.

 

[Dico888]

Hey man! I'm sorry to hear about your situation with the girl from the bar. But you did get 90% hard, it's progress man.

Why embarrassed about your uncut penis? I assume you are from the USA then?
It's very normal here to be uncircumcised, thankfully!

Anyways, did you O with the girl? It could explain your 0 motivation afterwards, could be a flatline yeah. At least I had it for a few days after O'ing with a girl.

And take it back a step man. You were hard and you lost your erection, big whoop. Just blame it on the alcohol, I did it a lot of times and "whiskey dick" is a real term!

Don't dodge her, it would just make everything more awkward. Take Retro Gamer's advice, just give it another shot! Text her or call her and just admit you were a little bit embarrassed that you lost your mojo, hence you didn't talk to her the last days. I'm very sure she will be understanding.

And you could also go down on her, this will take your focus of your dick for a while and you can relax more. Because once again; the problem is between your ears, not your legs