Mate, 48 days was a good streak. And you've done lots of good things:
- you told your wife rather than hiding it;
- you came back on here and faced the music rather than running away;
- you committed today to be day one rather than another day zero.
Now my advice is this: take a moment to reflect on the circumstances that led to the relapse. What could you do differently next time? Think about how it feels to relapse. And how it felt to be 47 days clean.
And over the next few days, when it pains you to type "day two / three / four"... Use that pain to your advantage. To build up resilience for next time.
Go again