rider654321
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Havetodothis40 said:I am not willing to accept a limitless amount of slips. I was just stating that I am not going to give up. The whole get knocked down 7 times, get back up 8 times. After each slip I always say that is the last one and mean it whole heartily.
For me, the slips are not just due to urges or triggers like seeing a lady in a bikini in a commercial. I can control those and feel pretty confident about them. My problem is emotional triggers. Lately this has been a strong feeling of depression feeling like I am going to be alone for ever. Like my apartment will never hear the sound of a woman again. I'm using PMO as an emotional crutch. The bad part is know I know PMO is the broken leg I need the crutch for. The secret for me might be finding a new crutch while I learn to walk with out one.
I think the sexual release aspect of having a partner is one reason why doing this single is so tough. For me the second and probably bigger reason is I do not have someone to talk to about this. Someone I trust and can talk to on a regular basis. Someone that I can do stuff with that will will distract me from being alone in a room full of devices.
Today I learned about a runners club. I think I might look into that. I have to find ways to be more social. My hermit ways need to stop.
Hi HTDT
What Thimbuk2 has posted above is excellent advice.
The runners club sounds good too. Anything that can refocus you away from porn will be beneficial, though you're still at some point going to be at home alone with a room filled with devices. So you also need to work out for yourself how you're going to deal with those times? Even if it means your journal here at those times.
I have no one to talk to about this either other than those I have come to know on here. This is my outlet when I need to vent, or lay my thoughts out. So your not really alone and nor am I.
I really do get how hard this is for single guy's. That is why I suggest that regular M be part of your life, just don't add the P part to it. It's the P that fucks up your brain and you don't want that. You want to be able to imagine yourself with a new GF down the track and being able to make love to her like a man should.
So maybe a good question might be "How long are are you going to allow porn to keep taking that opportunity away from you?"
If I were in your position I'd make a clear connection in my mind that every time I cave in and go back to porn and PMO, I am by default self sabotaging the relationship I'll have with my next girlfriend in advance of even meeting her.
The real problem with a accepting attitude towards slips has been talked about in plenty of threads on here. The problem is they just get easier to accept. You accept the first slip and then the next and the next and then the one after that too. You might convince yourself wholeheartedly each time that was the last one, but it never is, and likely never will be if you're going to be a person who will willingly accept slips as part of your reboot plan.
I'd encourage you to view slips as something much more than just a "slip". See them for what they really are, as self sabotaging actions that are intent on screwing up your next relationship.