Finally seeking help (imaquitter)

imaquitter

imaquitter

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Hmmm, I'm looking at b**bs when i see women in movies/video clips.
I'd better keep myself together.

Otherwise day 18 was ok. Headache made it a little more difficult as i have medicine (used to have...)

So, still no PMO/MO last 18 days ;)
 
imaquitter

imaquitter

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:-[
MO'ed to YouTube, dont think it was age restricted but fake anyway. (Mobile to the bathroom - have avoided to bring it a long time)
Dissapointed of my self. I am definetly on day 0 of hardmode, but I'll try to continue.

Am i on day 0 of reboot too?

I am so mad at myself. And I keep it inside as usual. I have felt it building up over the days.


Exept from that ive had a nice day so far.
 
Fappy

Fappy

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it was exactly porn but it was still visual stimulation to O. You have made great progress so far and just slipped up to some bullshit youtube video. I wouldnt say this is a full reset of your reboot in that sense. But that depends on your own thinking and the boundraries of your reboot which only you can decide.
My opinion, not a full reset - just a very stupid slip up.
However, if you use the excuse of `its ok coz its not porn!` it can get out of hand very quickly (literally!)
Also watch out for the dreaded chaser effect after these things
Other than that, youve made great progress so far. Just learn fom this idiotic mistake and dont do it again!
 
imaquitter

imaquitter

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Still embarrassed.
Day 0 of hardmode
Day 20 of reboot.

Thanks Reformed.
Will not make excuses. This was a partly slip!
 
imaquitter

imaquitter

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Day 3/23 all well.
Doing great at work, my colleagues appreciate what I do and I make a difference in other people's lives.
Determined to make a change in my own as well ;)
 
imaquitter

imaquitter

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Day 0 of hardmode.
Need to be careful now. Talked to W about it, need all the support I can have now. Seems like I'm at the first obstacle. Don't want to go PMO!
 
bob

bob

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You can do this. Just remember where you have been and what you have accomplished. You just keep moving forward.

Peace
 
imaquitter

imaquitter

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Day 24
Day 0 hardmode

Need to control my feelings better. Don't give in and feel sorry.
Thanks Bob for your support! And all you others.
The selfish, craving part of me needs to be shrinked. Anyone's got a shrinking beam?
 
Dimitri Maoutsidis

Dimitri Maoutsidis

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Hi bud. My first post here. I think we have about the same age, I started at 13 and now I am 38. It's been a month since I started and I relapsed 4 times. I don't worry much about counting, even the 7 -10 days I have in between are a great improvement. I think you can see it like this too. Of course I am heading for better results, I believe that. Put some blinkers on your eyes and just look forward... like you got a twin turbo race car and you are learning to drive it. You crash every time here and there but you don't keep your eye on the speedo, you look forward on the road.

And by the way when you learn to drive it, call for a ride....
 
imaquitter

imaquitter

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Dimitri Maoutsidis said:
Hi bud. My first post here. I think we have about the same age, I started at 13 and now I am 38. It's been a month since I started and I relapsed 4 times. I don't worry much about counting, even the 7 -10 days I have in between are a great improvement. I think you can see it like this too. Of course I am heading for better results, I believe that. Put some blinkers on your eyes and just look forward... like you got a twin turbo race car and you are learning to drive it. You crash every time here and there but you don't keep your eye on the speedo, you look forward on the road.

And by the way when you learn to drive it, call for a ride....
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Welcome here. I feel the journal helps! Make your own.
And you'll make it too! Relapses are part of being human, although I don't want to relapse. I probably will. I've been close several times. But having a deal, not only with myself but my buddies here too certainly helps!
 
imaquitter

imaquitter

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All well. Day 27. It's been a battle the last week. Will wait out the storm. I can see my potholes in the road in front of me. A major one is YouTube. I love to educate myself but isn't it so that all the bad stuff is only three clicks away even on YT. And when you first start clicking. It's like your brain's clicking too. A well known pattern, just a substitute web address. And a road paved with the letters P, then M and crashing in a wall of O's. The toll on that road is to expensive, it's like a huge debt impossible to pay back, with huge interests. Almost like a credit card. NO! I don't want to go down that road! I SAID NO!!!!!!
 
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