Andyshealthyself
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Starting a journal for my 90 quest, if this is an inappropriate place for this, please let me know. Same applies if there is TMI, I feel like documenting my journey with my peers is good way to stay accountable. Feel free to provide feedback if you would like. Any love is good.
10/8/2018 12:53 PM
Day one...
Fairly Easy so far, I have my lady put a restrictions pass code on my phone. This is temporary. The reason for this is because often times even at work id find myself running to the bathroom to look at pin sites...Not healthy. So thats what the restrictions code is for. To break the habit.
At work now actually, On break researching and reading some more about this. I listened to a few podcasts as well regarding rebooting.
Last night, I was attempting to begin being intimate with my lady. I was holding back a lot for a couple of reasons. Number one, it was about 12:30 AM...trying different variations of foreplay this late at night...I was not sure if I could go " All the way" So to speak. For fear of disappointment... But I was also in the mindset of " Dont start something you can't finish...which persuaded me to continue...which led to disappointment and a crushing anxious depression that kept me up until 3 am....then woke up at 7 am...
Sooo I havent really slept...but thats ok, Still motivated. Cooked breakfast with my lady this morning and we both went our separate ways. I used the hour of alone time in the house to watch a Gabe Deen video on youtube.
10/8/2018 12:53 PM
Day one...
Fairly Easy so far, I have my lady put a restrictions pass code on my phone. This is temporary. The reason for this is because often times even at work id find myself running to the bathroom to look at pin sites...Not healthy. So thats what the restrictions code is for. To break the habit.
At work now actually, On break researching and reading some more about this. I listened to a few podcasts as well regarding rebooting.
Last night, I was attempting to begin being intimate with my lady. I was holding back a lot for a couple of reasons. Number one, it was about 12:30 AM...trying different variations of foreplay this late at night...I was not sure if I could go " All the way" So to speak. For fear of disappointment... But I was also in the mindset of " Dont start something you can't finish...which persuaded me to continue...which led to disappointment and a crushing anxious depression that kept me up until 3 am....then woke up at 7 am...
Sooo I havent really slept...but thats ok, Still motivated. Cooked breakfast with my lady this morning and we both went our separate ways. I used the hour of alone time in the house to watch a Gabe Deen video on youtube.