Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
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pruthukkc
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Day 1 @ 7/3/2019
Day 1 : Today i suffered from higher levels of depression and anxiety no drive to do anything i slept till 8:30 AM and after that @ afternoon. I worked out eat healthy and this is my positive side. I also experiencing mood swings and it really made me miserable. This addiction is really tough to crack but if you cracked it you will find freedom inside. I made my daily routine and now i am following very strictly. Lets see how it works in my journey.
NEVER EVER GIVE UP REBOOTERS LET'S WALK TOGETHER ON THIS PATH
Day 1 : Today i suffered from higher levels of depression and anxiety no drive to do anything i slept till 8:30 AM and after that @ afternoon. I worked out eat healthy and this is my positive side. I also experiencing mood swings and it really made me miserable. This addiction is really tough to crack but if you cracked it you will find freedom inside. I made my daily routine and now i am following very strictly. Lets see how it works in my journey.
NEVER EVER GIVE UP REBOOTERS LET'S WALK TOGETHER ON THIS PATH
pruthukkc
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Day 2 @ 8-3-2019
Clean day no urges, anxiety reduced and felt better. Sleep quality was good and no headache at all. I also worked out and eat healthy. Really great start of pmo free journey
?The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.? ? Chinese proverb
Clean day no urges, anxiety reduced and felt better. Sleep quality was good and no headache at all. I also worked out and eat healthy. Really great start of pmo free journey
?The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.? ? Chinese proverb
pruthukkc
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DAY 4 @ 10-3-2019
Faced really strong urges and cant able to sleep at night but i tried to calm down myself also i had strong headache. This happening because of brain plasticity and pain is normal in this process so be calm Lets see how it goes but now i am prepared for it and this time i will complete my goal
Recovery is something that you have to work on every single day and it?s something that doesn?t get a day off.
Faced really strong urges and cant able to sleep at night but i tried to calm down myself also i had strong headache. This happening because of brain plasticity and pain is normal in this process so be calm
Lets see how it goes but now i am prepared for it and this time i will complete my goal Recovery is something that you have to work on every single day and it?s something that doesn?t get a day off.
pruthukkc
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Day 5 @ 11-3-2019
I relapsed once again. I can't able to sleep and then I turn into phone and after that I can't control myself. I relapsed 2 times. This year I relapsed 10 times totally weak inside but still I am not giving up. I have drive to change. After writing this journal I will write down my morning and night routine and strictly follow it because most of the time I relapse @ night and it is because of sleep problem so if I manage to sleep as early as possible and wake up early I will improve my energy levels and it also support my pmo free journey but because of withdrawals I can't able to sleep and I need p to fix my dopamine that's why I relapsed. I also committed to do yoga and meditation daily but because of laziness it can't consistent. But now I got wake up call and it's best time to change. Only you and you can change yourself nothing else. From Tomorrow I will start counting days.
It?s not that some people have willpower and some don?t. It?s that some people are ready to change and others are not.
I relapsed once again. I can't able to sleep and then I turn into phone and after that I can't control myself. I relapsed 2 times. This year I relapsed 10 times totally weak inside but still I am not giving up. I have drive to change. After writing this journal I will write down my morning and night routine and strictly follow it because most of the time I relapse @ night and it is because of sleep problem so if I manage to sleep as early as possible and wake up early I will improve my energy levels and it also support my pmo free journey but because of withdrawals I can't able to sleep and I need p to fix my dopamine that's why I relapsed. I also committed to do yoga and meditation daily but because of laziness it can't consistent. But now I got wake up call and it's best time to change. Only you and you can change yourself nothing else. From Tomorrow I will start counting days.
It?s not that some people have willpower and some don?t. It?s that some people are ready to change and others are not.
Tempted
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Dont let it take you down. I relapsed plenty of times but I am feeling good and positive right now. You seem to have a very healthy attitude and the drive. You will get there! Porn is a sneaky one, I personally had to get rid of all social media which might even show me a good looking girl, I am/was just that conditioned by porn to think women=hardcore sex. Currently on my own day 5 and I hope I push trough, I never reached 7 days before .
Keep going man, maybe charge your phone away from your bed, so you cant look at it while you are lying down?
.Keep going man, maybe charge your phone away from your bed, so you cant look at it while you are lying down?
pruthukkc
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Thanks for your wise words and supportTempted said:Dont let it take you down. I relapsed plenty of times but I am feeling good and positive right now. You seem to have a very healthy attitude and the drive. You will get there! Porn is a sneaky one, I personally had to get rid of all social media which might even show me a good looking girl, I am/was just that conditioned by porn to think women=hardcore sex. Currently on my own day 5 and I hope I push trough, I never reached 7 days before
Keep going man, maybe charge your phone away from your bed, so you cant look at it while you are lying down?
pruthukkc
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Day 1 @ 12-4-19
Today I feel really tired I want to give up my life, stress levels spiked like crazy and my mood was always changing. I talked with people's with aggression. One of my (female) friend want to talk with me but I ignored her. I felt really bad about my behaviour. I also thought about commiting suicide because of pain but I really want to go through this pain to change my heart. It's tough time but I feel really proud to complete my 1st day PMO free.
You don?t get over an addiction by stopping using. You recovery by creating a new life where it?s easier to not use. If you don?t create a new life, then all the factors that brought you to your addiction will catch up with you gain.
Today I feel really tired I want to give up my life, stress levels spiked like crazy and my mood was always changing. I talked with people's with aggression. One of my (female) friend want to talk with me but I ignored her. I felt really bad about my behaviour. I also thought about commiting suicide because of pain but I really want to go through this pain to change my heart. It's tough time but I feel really proud to complete my 1st day PMO free.
You don?t get over an addiction by stopping using. You recovery by creating a new life where it?s easier to not use. If you don?t create a new life, then all the factors that brought you to your addiction will catch up with you gain.
Rebooter2019
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You definitely something to be proud of! 1 Day is the first step and I can be a really hard one! When you start rebooting, it's the perfect time to check everything that you need to improve in your life and yourself!
You have to improve both together, because they are both in cause storywise! You're here because you want to take action. You're more than capable to beat the shit out of this crappy addiction. Time will be hard, but remember that freedom, control and knowledge of yourself is what is waiting for you at the end of this journey! Maybe more if you reflected on the integrity of your life and yourself!!
Stay strong, my friend!
You have to improve both together, because they are both in cause storywise! You're here because you want to take action. You're more than capable to beat the shit out of this crappy addiction. Time will be hard, but remember that freedom, control and knowledge of yourself is what is waiting for you at the end of this journey! Maybe more if you reflected on the integrity of your life and yourself!!
Stay strong, my friend!
Rebooter2019
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Calm down! If you keep beating yourself you won't ever break the cycle!! You won't feeling better and start progressing until you understand that!
You're doing what I was doing! Since I stop doing that, things slowly start to improve! It took a some time to reach that point where I'm more confident in my futur, but it's only by looking how you can improve things and keep tweaking what's needed to be that you can reach this state!!
I'm sorry for your relapse! You need to be careful of your thoughts!! They can easely make you lose all the progress you've made no matter how big or small the progress was!
Hope it will help you! Stay strong, my friend!!
You're doing what I was doing! Since I stop doing that, things slowly start to improve! It took a some time to reach that point where I'm more confident in my futur, but it's only by looking how you can improve things and keep tweaking what's needed to be that you can reach this state!!
I'm sorry for your relapse! You need to be careful of your thoughts!! They can easely make you lose all the progress you've made no matter how big or small the progress was!
Hope it will help you! Stay strong, my friend!!
pruthukkc
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Rebooter2019 said:Calm down! If you keep beating yourself you won't ever break the cycle!! You won't feeling better and start progressing until you understand that!
You're doing what I was doing! Since I stop doing that, things slowly start to improve! It took a some time to reach that point where I'm more confident in my futur, but it's only by looking how you can improve things and keep tweaking what's needed to be that you can reach this state!!
I'm sorry for your relapse! You need to be careful of your thoughts!! They can easely make you lose all the progress you've made no matter how big or small the progress was!
Hope it will help you! Stay strong, my friend!!
Dear Rebooter2019
Thank you for taking the time to share all of that great information with me. Your support, encouragement and advice have been extremely helpful. I now feel confident
pruthukkc
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Day 1 at 14-3-2019
Today I meditate and did yoga.once again i prepared to change. In life we make so many mistakes but important thing is to awake and keep improving yourself, keep learning from your mistakes. I also uninstall all social media apps and now my next step is reducing use of internet. This is final attempt and this time I will fix my brain dopamin.
Never ever give up
Today I meditate and did yoga.once again i prepared to change. In life we make so many mistakes but important thing is to awake and keep improving yourself, keep learning from your mistakes. I also uninstall all social media apps and now my next step is reducing use of internet. This is final attempt and this time I will fix my brain dopamin.
Never ever give up
Rebooter2019
Active Member
pruthukkc said:
I had that a couple of time! One thing you could try is to get up and do something, after a while you may feel tired and you will be able ro go sleep! Try it, otherwise, you could get up freeze cold shower your head or your whole body! It worked for one of my friend that is rebooting!
Don't give up man, you can do it!!