Day 19: No PM
Thanks BigMog for the encouragement.
Great day out in Town with wife. No urges or temptations.
Another wave of regret about marital betrayal through SSA and P. in past. Realise that much of my former problems were rooted in 'I'm not OK; you're not OK' false beliefs. Saw other people, especially men, as threats. The only safe person is a naked one...so I thought. Looked for acceptance in an unhealthy and unnecessary way. It was only when I came to my senses about 5 years ago while on cam/chat sites that I realised that I was dishonouring those that I was watching. Also, I was degrading myself for displaying what is only my wife's sexual property. Wish I had come to my senses and been stronger long ago.
Still, the present (and future) does not hold regret.