mattdes
Member
I'm 39 and I have quite a bit of luck with women until it comes to getting hard with them. I've had a nightmare since around 2001 with my problems getting worse and worse. I used to drink a lot and I think hangovers sent me on an anxiety porn binge the day after partying. I would click and click and open new tabs and then click on another video and another. I had no idea how much damage i was doing to my mind. I'm approaching 40 and I'm absolutely ashamed that I've let it go on for so long. Women I've really cared about have taken it personally and have been hurt by what they see as a form of rejection when i can't fuck them. How can you explain that you want to fuck but can't?
I quit this week and I'm 4 days in and i have changed my diet and started exercising and meditating as much as I can every day. I get morning woods and my erections with porn were actually very good but that counts for nothing really when you can't fuck. I was only on straight porn and sometimes just nudity. I'm hoping it counts for something and i can get my shit on track quickly. I might have an advantage because my brain and mind were developed before high speed porn was available. Before that it was magazines and videos but i could rarely get my hands on them. I already started to reduce my viewing for the past few months and didn't really spend a lot of time edging. I was on vacation a few months ago and I was exercising and walking and site seeing and not jerking off nearly as much and I noticed a little tingle and some life just walking around the cities. I experienced that same tingle today after just a few days so I am praying it won't be a long reboot because I have opportunities with women right now but I can't imagine sharing this starting out in a relationship. Well that's all for now but I'm hoping to interact with people here. I need support and encouragement and I need to know I'm not alone in this. I will go out of my head if I don't. Any advice or tips are welcome. Thanks for being here with me.
I quit this week and I'm 4 days in and i have changed my diet and started exercising and meditating as much as I can every day. I get morning woods and my erections with porn were actually very good but that counts for nothing really when you can't fuck. I was only on straight porn and sometimes just nudity. I'm hoping it counts for something and i can get my shit on track quickly. I might have an advantage because my brain and mind were developed before high speed porn was available. Before that it was magazines and videos but i could rarely get my hands on them. I already started to reduce my viewing for the past few months and didn't really spend a lot of time edging. I was on vacation a few months ago and I was exercising and walking and site seeing and not jerking off nearly as much and I noticed a little tingle and some life just walking around the cities. I experienced that same tingle today after just a few days so I am praying it won't be a long reboot because I have opportunities with women right now but I can't imagine sharing this starting out in a relationship. Well that's all for now but I'm hoping to interact with people here. I need support and encouragement and I need to know I'm not alone in this. I will go out of my head if I don't. Any advice or tips are welcome. Thanks for being here with me.