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wecandoit
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Day 10
Today started with a hard wave of urges. I really struggled. But as I began my day, they stopped and I wasn't bothered by urges anymore.
At work I felt even better than yesterday. Low social anxiety, my mind worked well and I spoke with ease. I talked more than usual. But as the work day was coming to an end, I lost my edge. My voice lost some of its volume and I wasn't the same.
Then I went to the bus station, saw a girl there and I remembered that I was single. I started feeling sad and remembered the loneliness. My non-existent social life makes it so difficult to meet girls. All my coworkers are guys. And, in general, people meet their partners through friends, hangout, social events and stuff. As I have none of these, it's been really hard to meet anybody. I'm still kind of sad about it. I really don't have anything, this reboot is all I have as a hope that maybe I could do better socially one day.
Today started with a hard wave of urges. I really struggled. But as I began my day, they stopped and I wasn't bothered by urges anymore.
At work I felt even better than yesterday. Low social anxiety, my mind worked well and I spoke with ease. I talked more than usual. But as the work day was coming to an end, I lost my edge. My voice lost some of its volume and I wasn't the same.
Then I went to the bus station, saw a girl there and I remembered that I was single. I started feeling sad and remembered the loneliness. My non-existent social life makes it so difficult to meet girls. All my coworkers are guys. And, in general, people meet their partners through friends, hangout, social events and stuff. As I have none of these, it's been really hard to meet anybody. I'm still kind of sad about it. I really don't have anything, this reboot is all I have as a hope that maybe I could do better socially one day.