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achilles heel said:Do you use any restrictions to keep yourself away from porn? Like blocking certain pages / certain times to access internet on computer and phone?
Hey, man!
I don't watch porn on my phone. For computer, I have a parental control that doesn't let me access the porn websites. But I could search for pictures on Google Images if I wanted. If I wanted to find a way to look at something, I would. I think a part of the "blocking" aspect should start with myself.
As you mentioned gaming and a generally isolated life, you might replace screen activities by reading or something creative like writing or playing an instrument.
My lonely life is the biggest trigger for me because it makes me depressed and depression finds ways to porn. I haven't been able to move things in my life yet. Reading sounds good.
It might also help to give yourself the signal of starting again by changing daily routines or rearranging furniture, changing your environment - basically doing something new, whatever it may be. Something to remind yourself that you're going for a major change in life and then take this step by step, day by day. It's important to not let depression and lack of perspective win over your will to change.
Yes, you are correct, that's what I should do. But I haven't really had any energy and mood lately. I am kind of sick in a non-sick way. I am not trying to look for excuses for why I am not doing anything but this is really the reality right now. I've been kind of depressed lately. It started with a day some time ago and depression returned to me. I mean, my default condition is a bit depressed and anxious but there are periods in my life when I get hit by a big round of depression. Usually I manage it but sometimes it hits me in the head. It started with that day when I realized how lonely and disconnected I was from the social life I wanted. A couple of days later I relapsed and I've been binging since. This binging got me deeper into depression, lack of mood and energy.