I've used drugs in the past too...none of the stuff I tried comes close to porn. But if I'm honest, that is probably mainly because they cost a lot more $$$ and take a bit of effort to get. Porn is free and instant and can be done in secrecy. It's almost funny how perfect an addictive 'substance' it is.Aussie_85 said:Readytoreboot said:Welcome back to the no fap community and thanks for sharing your story. P became an escape for me in many ways and I can relate to the pain of this addiction. It had brought me to a low point in life and pulling myself away from P is a journey im still on. Although Ive had a lot of fun traveling the world and partying in my twenties, all the time I spent on P was too much time wasted that Ill never get back. Its good to hear that youre motivated to rid P from your life once and for all and I look forward to hearing more about your journey. Good luck mate
Hey mate thanks for the post,
escaping using porn is so powerful. Literally any issue can be forgotten about whilst doing it, I've tried different drugs in the past - some were fun, none compared to the overall power of porn. I'm glad you got to travel and party, luckily for me i didn't really get isolated majorly until around 25... from 16 - 22 i partied hard - Raves ( back when they were actually raves, not the commercialised shit these days) clubs, house parties. I'm grateful i got to have heaps of fun nights, I've read about guys over the years who have never even been to a club/party, virgins at my age. So although i missed out on some stuff, not all and i have plenty of good memories. I basically spent roughly 4 years in a room at my parents place PMO'ing, venturing out only to score weed. Travelling can be done at any age and enjoyed, partying can't....not really anyway. Once you hit 30 everyone has moved on, unfortunately - the scenes change and it went fast. Thanks again mate and good luck with your journey.
Aussie_85 said:Day: 27
Withdrawals Are Hell!!!
Now I'm remembering what this shit was like 6 years ago. Increased anxiety and insomnia, dizziness and the plain lazy lack of 'get up and go'. The spaced out kind of drugged feeling, the fight or flight response activated at strange unnecessary times - as if my brain is short circuiting. Come to think of it it's basically the same way iv'e been feeling for most of my adult life, just amplified massively - with a few new symptoms thrown in to make it more fun. Time is REALLY going slowly now as well, the days are just dragging out.
I have a feeling I'm going to be hit even harder with withdrawals, a feeling of impeding doom - bring it on if that's the case - my life is worth fighting for and I'll do anything to overcome this shit and be the father my daughter needs and partner my misso needs.
Had the strongest urges I've had for quite some time today.
Also in a bit of a down mood, it's like the guilt and regret of wasting the majority of my youth...the reality of the enormity of that just hits home when rebooting. As I've said previously my daughter has been the key to the proverbial lock of my pornography addiction - although I highly recommend not fathering your first child and entering a reboot at the same time - as I type this now it's 1:30 am and i have the baby monitor in front of me, hoping she doesn't wake up screaming having to change her nappy.
That's all for today.
Aussie_85 said:That's a really good point bilbo.
I know it's hard on partners - understandably, having to endure the reboot with us. We're both lucky to have that bro, as I'm sure you know.
For me i just feel like i need a break from orgasms and sex for a long period of time to give my brain a break. As your an OG you would've heard and possibly experienced the post orgasm issues many guys report - that's why I want to take it slowly when reintroducing them. So if we have sex a few times, no hangover or chaser effect...i wont stick to the once a week for a month rule...it's more of a rough guideline I've set out to add an extra layer of organisation. If on the other hand, in ( insert time frame here ) I'm feeling good, getting spontaneous erections, morning wood ( which I never get, I can just always get it up with sex ) etc then i'll try sex before the 6 blocks of 30 days. So by no means is this one of those locked in type plans.
Thanks for the post bro appreciate it.
Also to all who see this - please head on over to the Porn Addiction thread and vote on the poll - Porn Duration Sessions - that i posted, I'd really appreciate it.
Thanks again to everyone supporting me, your all great guys and i wish the best for you all, sincerely.
Phineas 808 said:I'm not sure I understand the no orgasm with the wife/girl friend thing
Aussie_85 said:Phineas 808 said:I'm not sure I understand the no orgasm with the wife/girl friend thing
Hey mate,
Basically from all I have read over the years going a period of time without orgasm can speed up the recovery process - and many men report huge spikes in urges when having sex early during a reboot causing relapses. So it's possible that orgasming to early into a reboot could slow down the process of our dopamine receptors ( and other parts and chemicals of the addicted brain ) returning to normal functioning, in a sense re-stimulating that pathway of - orgasm, porn - that we have conditioned our brains to be used to getting - but in theory your right. Right now I'm in a flatline, and if it follows my last decent reboot 6 years ago - I was in a flatline for the entire 3 months. No libido, penis physically shrunken, cold and dead. jumping into an ice cold shower shrinkage, but permanent. This physical response, disregarding all my other withdrawal symptoms tells me my brain is completely freaking out and in shock. It's kinda scary. What I'm doing is listening to my body. And right now my body is freaking out from not having the constant hits of dopamine from artificial stimuli...adding orgasms while I'm flatlining, at least for the foreseeable future is extremely counter productive in my opinion. But by no means am i trying to say this is the path everyone should follow or that I know for a fact orgasming right now would delay my progress or cause a relapse - this is just my own belief and conclusion after reading so much about it, and it just makes sense.
Rebooting while in a deep flatline is relatively easy urge wise. There are no massive whole days battling urges to watch ,so coming out of the flatline for me is not something i even want for at least 2 more months.
If your addicted to porn and remove porn, your goal of quitting porn is achieved. So for sure anyone reading this if you don't use porn and MO to touch daily, or have sex with your partner daily - you Will recover from porn addiction - eventually. And if it works for you great, whatever works for you to not use porn ever again, is amazing - but be honest with yourself if one thing isn't working for you. my personal advice is why risk dragging the reboot out? Just go no O for a while and see what happens.
Aussie.
akpal just saw your post,
I did my best to keep it trigger free bro 8)
Thanks again guys.