TryingHarder
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That is very common of course. PMO was always my way of dealing with poor mental health. Now, I have a mantra: Porn will never soothe your emotions. Find another way.I want porn to soothe my soul.
That is very common of course. PMO was always my way of dealing with poor mental health. Now, I have a mantra: Porn will never soothe your emotions. Find another way.I want porn to soothe my soul.
Things will ease up again soon.My week hasn't been perfect. Struggling a little bit with the up and downs of this whole thing. I can go for a few solid weeks with little or no desire and then out of the blue I turn into a monster who can't think of anything else but porn. It's staggering to think of having those two very different people inside of me. I am always a little bit shocked when this happens. I'm working on shoving the porn guy back into his cage. If I could just find a way to keep him locked in there for good everything would be a lot easier.
Good luck to all of you out there trying to tame the beast. Keep pushing back. We can surely win this battle.
I think this is true for a lot of us. You might have heard this fable... Inside of everyone lives two wolves. One is evil: anger, envy, jealousy, lies, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, and ego. The other is good: joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, empathy, generosity, truth. These two wolves are always fighting for dominance. Which wolf wins? The one that you feed.I can go for a few solid weeks with little or no desire and then out of the blue I turn into a monster who can't think of anything else but porn. It's staggering to think of having those two very different people inside of me.
Words of truth right here. I've done this many a time. I'm also crazy though so there's that!Tell that evil side of your brain to fuck off. Stare in the mirror and say it out load. I did that once (no one else was in the house) and it was truly cathartic.
However, I'm feeling a little depressed today and edgy. Like a good porn session would lift my spirits. I hate feeling that way, but man, I'm just dragging and feeling out of it.