Rebootando
Member
Hey guys, I'm 21 years old and starting another reboot. I say "another" because I tried rebooting over a year ago and it was very successful but then I started slipping when the pandemic hit. I still have my old account info but I decided to make a new account to start fresh. I made good progress during the last reboot but it's shameful to think that I've regressed since then. Anyways, this is technically day 0 since I had a PMO session around 12 A.M. last night. I also want to mention my main reason for starting a reboot in the first place is because I have PIED, which sucks.
I haven't been getting MW, but I remember that ~70 days into the previous reboot I was seeing good results with consistent MW. I know how unbelievably hard it is to quit PMO, but I know it's something I have to do. I was doing so incredibly well during my last reboot, but the reason I failed was that I started to slip. I know exactly when it happened too. It was when I decided that MOing was fine. And it was fine, but only for a while. I began to regress more and more, fantasizing about increasingly hardcore situations. Since I started MOing last year, I started watching porn again and PMOing in spurts. I would go through 2 to 3 weeks of not watching anything, and then I would either MO or PMO and tell myself it was okay. I would go through mini flatlines and wonder if I lost my sexual interest and try to force a reaction, this was a bad idea. I know what a flatline feels like and I just have to live in it. It's such a weird state of feeling nothing but also being frustrated at the same time. I felt like I wasn't human and didn't belong to society. It was alienating and isolating, but I was making progress.
The reason I'm restarting this journal is that I believe this is the only way to get better. I really looked forward to writing in my journal and interacting with you all. The person I was last year would be disappointed in what I've done, but he would be happy that I am restarting my journal. It's a step forward from where I was before. I might post from my old account later on to compare my current progress. I would really appreciate it if you guys left comments on my posts here, it means a lot. We got this bros.
I haven't been getting MW, but I remember that ~70 days into the previous reboot I was seeing good results with consistent MW. I know how unbelievably hard it is to quit PMO, but I know it's something I have to do. I was doing so incredibly well during my last reboot, but the reason I failed was that I started to slip. I know exactly when it happened too. It was when I decided that MOing was fine. And it was fine, but only for a while. I began to regress more and more, fantasizing about increasingly hardcore situations. Since I started MOing last year, I started watching porn again and PMOing in spurts. I would go through 2 to 3 weeks of not watching anything, and then I would either MO or PMO and tell myself it was okay. I would go through mini flatlines and wonder if I lost my sexual interest and try to force a reaction, this was a bad idea. I know what a flatline feels like and I just have to live in it. It's such a weird state of feeling nothing but also being frustrated at the same time. I felt like I wasn't human and didn't belong to society. It was alienating and isolating, but I was making progress.
The reason I'm restarting this journal is that I believe this is the only way to get better. I really looked forward to writing in my journal and interacting with you all. The person I was last year would be disappointed in what I've done, but he would be happy that I am restarting my journal. It's a step forward from where I was before. I might post from my old account later on to compare my current progress. I would really appreciate it if you guys left comments on my posts here, it means a lot. We got this bros.