I'm a porn addict (by far the crappiest, lamest addiction ever)

forceisstrong2

forceisstrong2

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Interesting thing happened to me in the last few days. I got the winter flu. I've spent the last couple of days laying in bed or just resting. Anyway, other than letting my body mend itself, it gave me a lot of time to think. I've been off porn for over 100 days and I should be doing great. But I'm not. My mental health is really up and down lately. A lot of negative thoughts, which are affecting my work and my life. These last two days, where I've not been caught up in life or work. have been really good for me. It has given me time to think. To revaluate where I've been going wrong. A lot of the things that I was worried about really aren't important at all. I feel I've been focusing too much on the wrong things.

I am going to try to change that. Have a much more positive outlook for 2024. And try to enjoy life a lot more too.

Day 122 Damn, just realised that's four months porn free. Another reason to celebrate.
 
forceisstrong2

forceisstrong2

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Not proud but I broke down and watched porn on Christmas Eve. Been watching since. Really disappointed with myself. Als, I had a load of plans/tasks to do over the hols and because of porn they got put on the backburner too.

Really pissed. Not sure yet what is the best way out of this. I know that porn too is a syntom. It's like a crutch I use sometimes as a way to prove to myself that I am a no good piece of shit. Anyways... not nice thoughts but gotta face em if I want to crush this fucking thing for good.

I think for the New Year I need to change up. These past two-three months I haven't been in control of my life. Not having fun. Not being social enough. Not being present enough and not happy enough. I need to change my life fundamentally. Otherwise, I'll be caught in this cycle for ever.
 
Pazienza

Pazienza

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forceisstrong2 said:
Day 0

Not proud but I broke down and watched porn on Christmas Eve. Been watching since. Really disappointed with myself. Als, I had a load of plans/tasks to do over the hols and because of porn they got put on the backburner too.

Really pissed. Not sure yet what is the best way out of this. I know that porn too is a syntom. It's like a crutch I use sometimes as a way to prove to myself that I am a no good piece of shit. Anyways... not nice thoughts but gotta face em if I want to crush this fucking thing for good.

I think for the New Year I need to change up. These past two-three months I haven't been in control of my life. Not having fun. Not being social enough. Not being present enough and not happy enough. I need to change my life fundamentally. Otherwise, I'll be caught in this cycle for ever.
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I feel ya. Same. I also didn't make it thru the Christmas fuckery clean, it's frustrating.

I fucking beat alcohol bro, and I can't believe that porn is a tougher opponent. Who knew
 
Blondie

Blondie

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Sorry to hear this @forceisstrong2. This happens man, I tell you what, the holidays can do this to us. I have nothing against the holidays nor against Christmas, but there's something about getting out of the routine that makes relapses all the more possible. We're not doing what we usually do, therefore, our old habits can jump back into our lives without even thinking about it. You had a great run and don't forget it. You slipped up but it's not terrible, just get back up and keep on going. Get those blockers ready and let's do this!

Love you my Irish brother.

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