Porn is not an option

[GeminiMan]

Great momentum @Blondie .
I pray you keep building on this and not get complacent or take chances on your self !

although life may not seem very different now compared to 6 months back , in truth it is a very different spectrum of life In which you are living right now though it all feels nothing exuberant or exciting more than an addicts life .

but I bet you can feel the lack of damages under the hood of your head already helping you cope much better with everlasting ups and downs of daily monotonous human life .

again thanks for showing us again that it is possible!

god bless .

 

[Blondie]

Day 183

 

[Blondie]

Great momentum @Blondie .
I pray you keep building on this and not get complacent or take chances on your self !

although life may not seem very different now compared to 6 months back , in truth it is a very different spectrum of life In which you are living right now though it all feels nothing exuberant or exciting more than an addicts life .

but I bet you can feel the lack of damages under the hood of your head already helping you cope much better with everlasting ups and downs of daily monotonous human life .

again thanks for showing us again that it is possible!

god bless .

Thanks man. Yes, life is definitely better on this side of the fence, but surprisingly I still have to remind myself of that fact constantly. It amazes me how fast my mind forgets that depression after a relapse, and all the shame that comes with it. However, after six months, I do feel more confident in handling life on its own terms, which is (at least for myself) the whole meaning of this journey. One day at a time!

 

[Blondie]

Day 184

 

[Blondie]

Day 185

 

[Blondie]

Day 186

“Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.” –Walter Elliott

 

[Blondie]

Day 187

 

[Blondie]

Day 188

I don't know if anyone has noticed this change when off of porn, but music is so much more emotional to listen to. Because my mind is off of artificial highs, it can truly experience music with a full canvas of emotions again. I was listening to some classical music last night, and damn near cried just by the sheer beauty of it all, which is something I have not felt in a long time.

I hope everyone has a good weekend and stay strong!

 

[particularly_respecting]

I don't know if anyone has noticed this change when off of porn, but music is so much more emotional to listen to. Because my mind is off of artificial highs, it can truly experience music with a full canvas of emotions again. I was listening to some classical music last night, and damn near cried just by the sheer beauty of it all, which is something I have not felt in a long time.

Not as far along in the process as you Blondie, but 100% I have noticed exactly this
Been revisiting a lot of my old favorites - feels good to be able to enjoy it again

Amazing work getting to 188 days - you stay strong too!

 

[Blondie]

Day 189

Thank you for your support Particularly_respecting!

"feels good to be able to enjoy it again" This is definitely true! Keep it up man.

 

[downhillfromhere]

What you’re saying about music is so uplifting to hear. Happy for you!

Music is definitely the most important thing in my life, and over the years is one of the few things that has really made me feel something. In a numbed existence, listening to music has often been like being able to surface for just a moment and gasp for air. Hoping to feel more like that as time goes on.

 

[Deleted member 22651]

Day 188

I don't know if anyone has noticed this change when off of porn, but music is so much more emotional to listen to. Because my mind is off of artificial highs, it can truly experience music with a full canvas of emotions again. I was listening to some classical music last night, and damn near cried just by the sheer beauty of it all, which is something I have not felt in a long time.

I hope everyone has a good weekend and stay strong!

I feel you completely on this one, music has always been my safe place no matter what. Nothing has ever compared to the first time I heard music high on weed, I felt like I was immersed in the songs and was one with the music.. I listen to classical for meditation and studying and keep discovering new masterpieces.

You're doing amazing bro, absolutely proud of you!!

 

[Blondie]

I just discovered Tchaikovsky - Piano Concerto 1 (B Flat Minor). It's sublime!

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[Blondie]

Day 190

Today's reading was very helpful and hit me square on the head.

"Don’t take a lion out for a walk.

Lions are amazing, majestic animals and, regardless of how well they may be trained, they are dangerous. A trained lion that has been calmly at the trainer’s side for years is still an unpredictable wild beast at its core. If a full-grown lion becomes aggressive, we do not have the size or the strength to restrain it. Our addiction is a lion. Taking our addiction out for a walk is asking for trouble."

How true this is. Once a breach has been made in our defenses, it is so much harder to patch it up again.

Stay strong everyone!

 

[Deleted member 22651]

I just discovered Tchaikovsky - Piano Concerto 1 (B Flat Minor). It's sublime!

My current favourites are "Gianni Schicchi: O mio babbino caro" and "Queen of the night's Aria (Magic Flute), by Mozart"

 

[Blondie]

Oh thank you. O mio babbino caro was beautiful!

 

[Blondie]

Day 191

 

[Blondie]

Day 192

 

[Blondie]

Day 193

 

[Blondie]

Day 194

I might be starting another flatline, but not 100% sure at the moment. However, it would only be a small flatline at this point of the game. Either way, bring it on!

I hope everyone has a great weekend.