Finally, I'm doing this…
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Ezel
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Thanks Blondie, we learn from you king.
Appreciate it shodan. Keep doing your thing champ.It’s all you brother
Shodan
Member
I appreciate that brother, long may we both, long may we all keep on keeping on! It’s all up from here
Ezel
Respected Member
Day 0.
Looking back at it, I remember going 3 months monk mode was the easiest thing to do. The real struggle for me back then was the fourth and the fifth month. Now I can't even go past one week without relapsing. My self-control is at its lowest.
This week is my last week at work so I can go back to college. I’m also going to get a gym membership to see if I can discipline myself even more.
Looking back at it, I remember going 3 months monk mode was the easiest thing to do. The real struggle for me back then was the fourth and the fifth month. Now I can't even go past one week without relapsing. My self-control is at its lowest.
This week is my last week at work so I can go back to college. I’m also going to get a gym membership to see if I can discipline myself even more.
Shodan
Member
It ain’t over til it’s over brother. You can do this, I agree you should attend the gym and try and workout in the mornings. Arrest that loose energy early in the day and set the tone for the rest of they day. It’s not easy my friend, if it was everyone could it. The fact you recognise it’s no good for you is half the battle. Look the other half in two quarters. 1 quarter is beating the impulse to PMO the last quarter is building a life/lifestyle/mentality that makes no room for anything unhealthy, especially this crap. Jump back on the bus and keep the wheels turning, don’t get down on yourself brother.
One recommendation I’d say you should employ straight ways is cold showers - they’ll change your life my friend I’m telling you. One day at a time, I know it isn’t easy brother. It really isn’t, but what comes easy doesn’t last for long.
Godspeed.
FreedomFromTheStruggle_11
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Love ya, bro. Keep your head up. We'll all get there one day and it'll be amazing.
Ezel
Respected Member
Day 1 (no po, no mo) monk mode.
In a weak moment, I bought an of subscription of an influencer on tiktok. I never knew I would go to that extent. But it is what it is. 4 days ago I deleted my account. I wasn’t hooked by her content tbh. You can find more revealing content on porn free websites. This got me thinking about that saying if it’s free then you are the product.
Man this filth is all just a race to the bottom, once you ejaculate, you wake up realizing what the hell did i done, where was my brain, my free will, my choice. It’s like I'm on autopilot mode and my monkey brain is taking charge of everything.
Yesterday I applied some anti porn dns on my phone and laptop. But as long as you don’t adopt an anti porn mindset you can get past those blockers easily. And as long as that mindset is out of reach for me right now, I'm going to stick with these blockers hoping it will get my thinking away from any adult content that may be shown on my devices.
In a weak moment, I bought an of subscription of an influencer on tiktok. I never knew I would go to that extent. But it is what it is. 4 days ago I deleted my account. I wasn’t hooked by her content tbh. You can find more revealing content on porn free websites. This got me thinking about that saying if it’s free then you are the product.
Man this filth is all just a race to the bottom, once you ejaculate, you wake up realizing what the hell did i done, where was my brain, my free will, my choice. It’s like I'm on autopilot mode and my monkey brain is taking charge of everything.
Yesterday I applied some anti porn dns on my phone and laptop. But as long as you don’t adopt an anti porn mindset you can get past those blockers easily. And as long as that mindset is out of reach for me right now, I'm going to stick with these blockers hoping it will get my thinking away from any adult content that may be shown on my devices.
Blondie
Respected Member
I hear you brother. I fucked up yesterday and felt all the same feelings as you. It's a terrible feeling.
All I can say is, don't live in shame and keep on going.
Love you
This has always been my feeling and thoughts as well. It helps but it's not a guarantee. Only you decide your fate.
All I can say is, don't live in shame and keep on going.
Love you
Hi, Ezel! One thing you can do to build up your will power, or confidence in your will power is to make small promises or goals for yourself, and they don't have to be anything related to 'the struggle'. It can be, 'clean my office', or whatever, and that can help when bigger decisions need to be made'.
Best!
Best!
TryingHarder
Well-Known Member
Indeed. We have all come to this grotesque revelation at one time or another. The challenge is to not let your guard down and allow autopilot to take over.
Also very true. I do have a very effective blocker on my Chrome browser (Cold Turkey) but it's only a deterrent, not a fool-proof way for me to stay away from the filth. It all comes down to willpower and discipline.