SmokenMirrors
Well-Known Member
Keep pushing brother! We've all been there with 'relapses', simply use it as fuel to burn the hearth of passion!
Day 5! A huge achievement!Thanks for the words of encouragement Smoken! Your journal has definitely been extremely inspiring and motivating for me.
I've been having some pretty bad nightmares the past few days. Two days ago, I had actual nightmares of like extraterrestrial creatures that came to my house and were hurting my family... weird I know. But last night I had nightmares that I relapsed! I was literally PMOing in my dreams in my bedroom. Only when I woke up this morning did I realize how trippy it felt.
I remember during the nightmare, I felt really bad about the relapse, more so than in real life. I've been trying to remember this feeling so that I can be more mindful during urges.
It's the middle of the work week and I'm already beginning to feel unmotivated in terms of work. I know that I'll still eat properly and be able to workout because I've morphed these activities into disciplined habits. Still working on building up my focus and concentration on work.
Day 5
Keep your head up!! I’ve relapsed for the past 8 years straight!!! If you will learn and grow from it and when it’s your time you will finally beat this addiction.. You got this.. It’s gonna be a dog fight but you got this!!Hei - keep your head up - you are falling forward! You are getting rid of a horrible desease! Next time you feel a trigger, laugh and say to yourself "Ah it's so good to never have to do this shit again!".
Try positive self talk and please don't beat yourself up because you relapsed!
You got this, champ!
I'm currently reading Bret Easton Eliis's books, I'm a fan so far!Mindset is so key I think. I can't view P has something that I need to escape, I've already escaped it. I am not a P addict. I do not watch P.
Going to start trying to read in my spare time to help my brain stay active and learn new things. If anyone has any book recommendations that would be greatly appreciated.
I am strong and I will do this
Day 4