chap
Active Member
hello rebootnation,
i’m chap. at least that’s the anonymous name i’ll be going by. like all of you, i am finally making the call to reboot. right now, i am really unsure of how i want and need to go about this. i’ve done research, but not enough. i’m motivated, but lack the conviction to resist temptation. as i write this message out, i can not help but think about PMO.
i began to engage with PMO around the age of 11/12 and have continued to do so now at the age of 20 (on my way to 21 soon). tbh, i definitely discovered P even earlier, but i had not engaged in PMO until the age mentioned earlier. throughout the years i have developed certain sexual tastes, preferences, and fetishizes which have made it really hard to resist. i mainly have a leg/foot fetish, asian fetish, and hentai fetish. for a long time, i have saved hundreds to hundreds of material: pornographic, animated (hentai), and real-life people who exist in the current world and in my life. within the last month, i got rid of roughly 80% of this bank. but i have around a remaining 20% that exists in the form of photos and accounts to a handful of P subs. what should i do with remaining 20%, i don’t know what to do!
i want to say that i am getting hit hard with the chaser effect. i can’t go more than 2 days without PMO. my triggers are obviously the fetishes i mentioned above, and also the people i may see or think about who i have MO’d to before, on a regular basis. i am really uncertain of how to go about rebooting. like i don’t know if i can completely cut out PMO yet. what if i just MO’d and focus on separating from P initially? but then, would it be considered relapse if i imagined the things i often MO to (like scenes from P that i like, mental images of pictures i have MO’d to [including people i know in real life], pictures of hentai)? i would really appreciate it if some of you folks give me your two cents.
to end this first journal on a high note. i KNOW that i will MAKE IT THROUGH THIS! it isn’t going to be an easy journey, there will be highs and lows. but i know that with time and commitment, i will be able to stand on top, VICTORIOUS!
i am currently in my third year of community college with hopes to transfer to a four year someday, i have been employed at a food establishment for 2+ years, have social connections with friends, family, coworkers, and teammates, i am a student-athlete (distance runner) and engage in physical exercise six times a week, i have hobbies that i really enjoy such as drawing, writing stories, watching videos of my favorite k-pop group TWICE, watching movies, playing video games, watching anime, reading manga, learning Japanese (hopefully Korean in the near future), and making music to name a few.
i hope this post gives you all a glimpse into who i am and i hope that you will be able to help me in this journey. i will do my best to be supportive in your reboot as well. WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER!
i’m chap. at least that’s the anonymous name i’ll be going by. like all of you, i am finally making the call to reboot. right now, i am really unsure of how i want and need to go about this. i’ve done research, but not enough. i’m motivated, but lack the conviction to resist temptation. as i write this message out, i can not help but think about PMO.
i began to engage with PMO around the age of 11/12 and have continued to do so now at the age of 20 (on my way to 21 soon). tbh, i definitely discovered P even earlier, but i had not engaged in PMO until the age mentioned earlier. throughout the years i have developed certain sexual tastes, preferences, and fetishizes which have made it really hard to resist. i mainly have a leg/foot fetish, asian fetish, and hentai fetish. for a long time, i have saved hundreds to hundreds of material: pornographic, animated (hentai), and real-life people who exist in the current world and in my life. within the last month, i got rid of roughly 80% of this bank. but i have around a remaining 20% that exists in the form of photos and accounts to a handful of P subs. what should i do with remaining 20%, i don’t know what to do!
i want to say that i am getting hit hard with the chaser effect. i can’t go more than 2 days without PMO. my triggers are obviously the fetishes i mentioned above, and also the people i may see or think about who i have MO’d to before, on a regular basis. i am really uncertain of how to go about rebooting. like i don’t know if i can completely cut out PMO yet. what if i just MO’d and focus on separating from P initially? but then, would it be considered relapse if i imagined the things i often MO to (like scenes from P that i like, mental images of pictures i have MO’d to [including people i know in real life], pictures of hentai)? i would really appreciate it if some of you folks give me your two cents.
to end this first journal on a high note. i KNOW that i will MAKE IT THROUGH THIS! it isn’t going to be an easy journey, there will be highs and lows. but i know that with time and commitment, i will be able to stand on top, VICTORIOUS!
i am currently in my third year of community college with hopes to transfer to a four year someday, i have been employed at a food establishment for 2+ years, have social connections with friends, family, coworkers, and teammates, i am a student-athlete (distance runner) and engage in physical exercise six times a week, i have hobbies that i really enjoy such as drawing, writing stories, watching videos of my favorite k-pop group TWICE, watching movies, playing video games, watching anime, reading manga, learning Japanese (hopefully Korean in the near future), and making music to name a few.
i hope this post gives you all a glimpse into who i am and i hope that you will be able to help me in this journey. i will do my best to be supportive in your reboot as well. WE ARE IN THIS TOGETHER!