Please forgive me for my first initial response to your statement, "You should try forgiving yourself." I had to chuckle a little bit. The reason for the chuckle is that forgiving others is something that I grew up knowing about and have had to forgive a few people in my life. Forgiving people for me is one of those foundational principles that are so important in life to grab a hold of and never let go of. Forgiving other people is always the right thing to do. It's so obvious. Right? Forgiving yourself? Well, apparently, not for me. I have been buried so deep in all the problems PMO has caused me that I have forgotten to "forgive" myself. Thank you for the reminder. This is definitely something I will start working on. Here's to another step in the right direction on this journey we call life. Thank you once again.You should try forgiving yourself. The PA conundrum is that what was involved was making a choice to do something, look at a picture or video and masturbate. And then that is labeled as bad. Then guilt, shame etc. I finally asked my husband, “Did you forgive yourself?” It helped him immensely. Just a thought.