Day 3
Today was a great day, a busy day.
The good thing is that for the most part of the day, my brain was focused in other things! Still clean!
I feel like i didn't introduced my case properly in the first thread, so i'm going to give a brief story of how i ended up here.
i'm in my late teens, i was PMOing for 3 years staight, everyday.
And i took a total drain in me. I couldn't focus in anything in the day before i PMO.
It took a hit in my grades, my relatinships and mainly, my mind.
After i watched P my mind would enter in a destructive mindset,"f this, f that." ï don't care, f this".
I would just throw my morals out of the window.
I have tried to quit this a lot of times but every time i would relapse and wouldn't try again for another week or month.
Nobody knew about this problem of mine, only me, and i knew it was wrong.
The pandemic didn't help either, i would spend a lot of time on my own, without anyone around me. It only helped to get this problem even worst.
I started 2022 with the mission to stop once and for all, and i'm going to do it. I am going to reboot and quit.
I started learning guitar, got a job, started to be more social, and it all led me here. After my last relapse last week, i realized that i can't do this alone. That's how i ended up here.
All and All, still clean, learning to be a better person with all of your support. thanks!