My Journey To Freedom!

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Day 9: MIA SAN MIA, we’re Bayern💯 I had a very social and fun day today, in the night I screamed my life out as i support My club Bayern who won 2-0 against Barcelona. Absolutely 0 urges, Few thoughts(not porn thoughts) in the morning. I have a very happy and confident mood today and I’m enjoying it. No PMO day 9 completed, Statying Strong!
 
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Day 11: Normally if you’ve been following this thread you’ll notice I update my progress around Midnight. But today the URGES came freakishly strong and I can’t risk reaching midnight awake. Of course I haven’t relapsed am staying strong, but I figured the best thing to do is update you guys and go to bed as soon as possible. I’m out!!!
 
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Hello guys am back! It’s been a while since I posted on this Forum and alot had happened since then. I’ve used the time also to think through about what i want and what is best for my life, and the answer is always to get rid of PMO, during my time away i had various relapses unfortunately.
But i took the big and difficult step i told my Girlfriend of my porn addiction, but it’s different for me in the sense that am a Muslim so Sex, or any physical intimacy with a lady is only permissible with your Wife. But i told her because i needed to get it off my tongue even if it means her breaking up with me. But she didn’t, in fact she understood me and was willing to support me and help me get over this stupid addiction. And believe me that was the best feeling to have someone close to you know what you’re going through and are willing to give you a helping hand. And because of that I’m back for the second and last time to quit for good, am currently on a streak that i have no idea how many days am at, because am focusing more on stopping myself from relapsing this time around instead of how long I’ve gone without relapsing! Let the journey continue, thank you to all the people on this forum supporting each other in one way or another, it might look as if it’s nothing but those little supportive words you type and reply might just be the motivation a person needed to prevent a relapse, let’s keep it up!
 
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a-a-ron said:
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Thank you! I’ve been getting alot of support from my girlfriend since i told her. I will say throughout Morning, Day and Night we’re texting each other on whatsapp, so that attention she’s giving me is really what I needed to get my mind off porn, but it led to another unfortunately, now am addicted to texting her🤣
Not counting days also I consider it vital for my own progress, I don’t know if it’s only me or not but the more time I spend on this site the more i start to feel an urge to watch porn that’s why i now take days interval before posting. I don’t count days because i will always remember those numbers are related to porn, so just knowing that could trigger an urge🤧 also anytime i do like 10-15 days free my brain will start buzzing me that a single peak and MO in 10 days will not spoil your progress then i will resist, eventually fall for the trick and relapse. I’m currently feeling super great and motivated.
Im a Nigerian and currently our Universities have shutdown due to strike, but of late there is green light of it being called off and resuming to classes soon, i live in Hostel so it will be hard for me to watch P or MO when almost at all times there is atleast 3 people in the room. Anyways it’s all being good for me so far, telling someone close to me about my addiction wasn’t easily at all, probably the most difficult thing i have done of recent i can remember, but i can tell you this a million times and more that it’s worth it far more than struggling by yourself. After all loneliness is what led to most of us into this regretful life, go out and make friends this world is to big for you to destroy your life behind closed doors.
 
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I told you reported previously that i told my girlfriend about my PMO addiction and i got a massive support from her to help me in quitting, after my last post i took an even bigger step of telling her about my PIED (could be considered by some stupid and unnecessary given the fact that we still have like 5 years time to get Married so i should have just kept quiet and if I stopped PMO for real five years time i will surely have overcome it) but No, i chose to tell her even if she’s going to leave me because I needed someone to scold me and put sense into my head, and that was exactly what she did. She was so Sad to hear about it, she said she was so Sorry for me. The girl Loves me so much and she said she promised this will never change her mind about me and she promised to always be with me. You see being a Muslim when you swear in God’s name then what ever it is you swore you’re obligated to it, she made me swore that i will never PMO again and i did! I know it was a very risky considering well I’ve been relapsing my whole life, but believe me when i say this is the only way i can think of that will make me quit for good. I’m still not counting days but I’ve got the ranges in my head, since my last relapse many days back let me say 14days I haven’t felt a single urge to do PMO because the mentality i have right now, I don’t think my brain could ever break the walls and barriers i put between myself and the dirty act! It’s been a life changing step to become a member of this Forum, and to everyone out there on this forum or as a Guest reader or other forums I wish everybody the best and pray we are able to win the war of ourselves and desires, Thank you, will be back soon!
 
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Day 15 (NO PMO, Hard Mode): I will be counting in 5’s now, I believed am very determined to quit this habbit that’s why am yet to crave or urge about it. My last Longest streak i can remember was the one I relapsed last which was on day 13, so this streak is already my best streak ever and also my last ever streak (i do not intend to relapse). Having PIED I consider both P and MO very deadly to my progress. I’ve read several articles of some people suffering with PIED saying they MO’ed without porn and they don’t consider it as relapse, since they can MO without P that’s progress for them. That Stupid of the highest order for me, you’re suffering from PIED yes you’re not looking at P but how can you expect the Mr down there to come back to life when you’re constantly draining it.
I first was introduced to the reboot system on REDDIT and believe me when i say that is the worst place to start your reboot (not mentioning any names here), there you’ll some dumb kid or Lost dude say i took so so dose of viagra and edged to some softcore P, but I didn’t relapse so day 5 tomorrow. The worst thing about it is people will keep motivating him not to relapse, I was so close to joining them, then i saw a youtube video that suggested this Forum and boy this is the best place you can be if you really mean to reboot. Sorry for the Long essay i just needed to keep myself busy at the moment that’s why, keep staying strong, let’s meet on Day 20!
 
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