Man things are just not letting up at the moment. Been a number of days now and still have this hankering craving/desire to MO, and it will just not go away! As soon as I stop for a second it's there tapping on my shoulder. I've been getting some solid spontaneous wood at times now which is awesome. I haven't felt so alive downstairs like that in a long time.
I can probably put it down to 2 things.
Number 1. As I've been becoming more self aware and active again I've been interacting with more people and girls the way I used to. I'm now noticing the attraction felt between me and other girls again. It's great, but again I can feel myself getting impatient and wanting the end result of an intimate relationship immediately. My default mode used to be to turn to porn, but this was one the realisations I had which led to my decision to reboot. I'm fighting on but I know this is going to be a battle as it's possibly one of the deepest ruts formed in my brain since my early teens.
Number 2. There is some seriously thickening sexual tension forming between myself and my housemate which is begging for the right oppurtunity to arise so that it can resolve. Again just a patience and waiting game. But man I wish it could happen quicker! Just with writing this now I can feel a stir from the 3rd Lieutenant.
I can probably put it down to 2 things.
Number 1. As I've been becoming more self aware and active again I've been interacting with more people and girls the way I used to. I'm now noticing the attraction felt between me and other girls again. It's great, but again I can feel myself getting impatient and wanting the end result of an intimate relationship immediately. My default mode used to be to turn to porn, but this was one the realisations I had which led to my decision to reboot. I'm fighting on but I know this is going to be a battle as it's possibly one of the deepest ruts formed in my brain since my early teens.
Number 2. There is some seriously thickening sexual tension forming between myself and my housemate which is begging for the right oppurtunity to arise so that it can resolve. Again just a patience and waiting game. But man I wish it could happen quicker! Just with writing this now I can feel a stir from the 3rd Lieutenant.