Times a' Changing

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Day 29
Yeww!! Finally been feeling some relief in regards to my mood! The last two days I've tried to adjust my mentality and really focus my energy on keeping myself on the up. As soon as I've felt any sinking feelings/moods coming through I've worked to move them to one side and refocus on what else I need to achieve for the day. It made a huge difference in my class yesterday and I was able to carry it throughout today also.

Just proves that consistency is the key. I've had a little of a confidence shift over the past two days also. Man the brain's a funny thing!!

I've also re-geared myself to start to really be more conscious of avoiding any hypersexualisation in my surroundings. It's sometimes hard to define the line between what normal behaviours regarding attraction to women are and how much is just sexualisation in society being thrown in your face. That's become my latest objective of this process, and trying to really lay down for myself what is being attracted to a girl and what is just lusting over a body.

Anyway a new goal was reached yesterday too. Hooray for me!! Winning!
Now refocus for the next.

"What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals" - Henry David Thoreau ​

Current Goal: 28 days - ACHIEVED!!!
New Goal: 35 days and 1 month officially
Achievements/Gratefulness: 28 days done and dusted; Get to see my dad this week; I've been able to flip my mindset around and my consistency has been rewarded

 

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Day 33
Just checking in as haven't had internet for a couple days. Not much to note. Still feeling moody, although the positive times are beginning to dominate and become stronger. Been talking with a lot of girls lately, getting my swing back slowly.

Been really craving a relationship lately. Wanting that connection and sharing of love with someone special.

Keep trucking in the words of Gabe.

"You will become as small as your controlling desire; as great as your dominant aspiration" - James Allen​

Current Goal: 35 days
Achievements/Gratefulness: Completed 1 month; Having a loving family

 

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Day 1
So things have slipped a little the last 2 days. I've PMO'd. Had a whole lot of things hit me at once; stress, downtime, and contact with a girl I'd been seeing for a while and her wanting to meet up again. All in all in, a tonne of triggers fired whilst at a pretty week point.

Bouncing back though. Not feeling any animosity about it though really. There's always that little nudge of, "Damn! Got to start the streak all over again now!", but I'm still feeling strong and as though I'm making progress. It just strengthens the reasons why I began this whole process by highlighting the contrast in what you miss out on. I've missed the gym, and not been as clear headed and focused towards achieving my goals and completing my important routines.

Anyway nothing to lose, only lessons learnt. Time to resaddle and push through those tough times again, using the past as reminders to make the future brighter and better.

"Mistakes are not failures as long as we reflect and learn from them"​

Current Goal: 7 days

 

[Tu 0 Seven]

Reasons why I'm ending

• I'm nearly 26, it means I've got 4 years of my 20s left. I want to make them count! I don't want to be 30 and still wacking off uncontrollably. By the time I'm 30 I want to be looking at starting a family, knowing exactly the direction I'm heading in. And enjoying that direction!!
• My business to be successful and triple the size it is now. I want to have achieved the 250 students my colleagues have.
• I want to be running from my own full time location
• Enjoying everyday of my life. Socialising with my friends. Being the life of the party I once was in my teen years. Feeling like I'm 21 and embracing every challenge that comes my way

"Today is the time to seize this opportunity. One more day and it will become a year"​

Just wanted to remind you of your goals mate!

Keep working towards them, one day at a time bro. These little PMOs we still do are just small obstacles in our great aspirations!

Cheers!