You're right about this. So much of this is knowing that you CAN do it. Once you understand that, it helps tremendously in the long run.There's no requirement to now go back to exactly as how things were 7 months ago. And I won't. And now I know how far I can go.
Truth. I've only recently thought I was okay in this department, but now I know I have a good ways to go. Opening up the past can be a real mind fuck, but it's always one of the keys to move forward for many of us.The short version is that a lifetime of burying (quite successfully) a lot of repressed feelings originating in childhood finally broke.
I wonder if you also need to apply for other jobs. Your job sounds grueling, and it sounds like they will just use you up and turn you into dust if you stay there.Sorry to hear this @logicprox, I get this.
You're right about this. So much of this is knowing that you CAN do it. Once you understand that, it helps tremendously in the long run.
Truth. I've only recently thought I was okay in this department, but now I know I have a good ways to go. Opening up the past can be a real mind fuck, but it's always one of the keys to move forward for many of us.
You got this man.
I wonder if you also need to apply for other jobs. Your job sounds grueling, and it sounds like they will just use you up and turn you into dust if you stay there.
Well, definitely do what makes sense for you. Hardwork for a worthy objective is different from just allowing yourself to be exploited.1 day. Honestly feel oddly great writing that. Back to business.
The worst of it is definitely over. Yes it's a grueling job at times but the Partners I work with were all telling me I have a path to Partner in the next couple of years, which is a very monetarily rewarding path...so I was starting to think earlier this year that I might go for it. Hence why I took on some "opportunities" that ended up being this nightmare.
That said I think I have changed my mind. I am through the worst of it until January, and there are some benefits to staying through January at least, so planning on leaving after that. I am doing a little casual looking in the meantime, and if the right position came up I would consider it.
Totally, and appreciate it. I just don’t think it’s what I want anymore haha.Well, definitely do what makes sense for you. Hardwork for a worthy objective is different from just allowing yourself to be exploited.
You're absolutely right about this. If we're continually learning new things about ourselves on this journey, then we're not falling backwards.My headspace is much better than it was then. I have learned a lot of lessons. Going through that last run changed me, even if it ended.