Bam! On Wednesday, I'll celebrate 5 f*cking years porn-free. And I couldn't have done it without this forum and its wonderful members. I am beyond thankful. On an addiction scale of 10, I was easily a 12 before joining Reboot Nation. I'd spend hours every day fapping to internet porn, suffered from severe porn induced erectile dysfunction (PIED), and a whole host of other porn-related problems. Now five years later, I'm a different and much better man. One of the greatest things about recovery is being able to sleep again. For most of my life, I've been a black-belt insomniac and never once considered that it was caused in part by my porn addiction. These days I fall asleep almost once my head hits the pillow and it's bliss. I can't tell you how much happier I am without porn because I don't spend all day, every day with this porn-like "I'm ashamed of myself" stank like some creepy form of second-hand smoke. I no longer have to deal with the daily shame of seeing my post-orgasm reflection in the computer screen after I've fapped for hours to some of the worst filth imaginable. When I joined RN five years ago, I thankfully adopted a "porn is not an option" mentality. I'm not going to lie. It was damn hard to go porn-free, particularly for the first 100 days. (Feel free to read my posts where I detail: night shakes; head rushes; migraines; and terrible blue balls because I gave up compulsive masturbation as well.) But after a few months, things got much easier. What was truly difficult was dealing with the emotional damage that led me down the path of addiction. For that, I'm thankful to www.pornaddictsanonymous.org and the 12 steps. Now five years later, I'm happily divorced, completely out of the closet, self-employed, and renovating a house with my long-term boyfriend. We move in next month! I am so thankful to Gabe for creating this website/forum which truly saved my life. Without RN, I'd probably be dead in some ditch because I was so addicted to porn/sex that I'd often watch porn and surf gay hookup apps while driving. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Love Lyon.