Viper's venom

[Viper]

Just because you are on vacation, doesn't mean that the challenges of
rebooting and freeing yourself of porn addiction won't come calling. So it's best to contribute to my journal for a
minute.
Got some fun things lined up today and tomorrow. The best thing about this is not just being somewhere else
but to wake up on Monday and not having to go to work. Anxiety is high and getting away is a reboot in itself.
Thing with me is that I'm doing good with staying away from porn. It's the mental images I get from women I
see that I wouldn't mind fornicating with. Celebrities and just regular people on the street. So I'm trying to
break that cycle because it may be impeding my progress. Like I said before, I really didn't need porn to
spank the monkey. Just trying to remove the lust on the surface. Nothing wrong with feeling attraction but
no need to keep an image of a woman's sexual potential in your head all day either-
Good news is that my PM streak is still going.

 

[Jverhoye]

What's the latest Viper?

 

[Viper]

What's the latest Viper?

So today will be 90 days of no PMO.
Now I have orgasm but it wasn't stimulated by me but by my lovely assistant.
So I'm happy I've made it this far but the previous week is when I wanted to jerk off so bad.
I had to do a google search on something very innocent and among one of the results happen
to be a porno image that I closed right away. But the the thought of that image stayed with me
throughout the day because it was something I used to looked forward to doing when I made it back home.
And that was to go online and browse for porn and beat my meat.
So that was tough but I've subsided since. My hard ons are sporadic. Haven't tried intercourse
in over a month and not sure it can stay hard while going balls deep. I would be more confident
if I'm at level 9. Maybe a consistent 8. I will take a consistent 8 over a temporary 10.

So I still have work to do but I feel better about my prognosis than i did on day 60.
My antics are not as bad as before in terms of 'acting out' and such. Well, at least I
haven't had any episodes that I can think of because I usually share them here.
So it is quite possible that the depression is receding and I could be somewhere
in the second half of the game. Who knows?

Thanks for asking.

 

[WiP]

Congrats on 90 days Viper.  Good Stuff Man. 
I am over 60 days and limp as a wet noodle.  Hope to see some progress on that front in the next couple of weeks before depression get the better of me and test peak urges get the upper hand  So far I have been strong.

 

[SO Reboot Partner]

What's the latest Viper?

So today will be 90 days of no PMO.
Now I have orgasm but it wasn't stimulated by me but by my lovely assistant.
So I'm happy I've made it this far but the previous week is when I wanted to jerk off so bad.
I had to do a google search on something very innocent and among one of the results happen
to be a porno image that I closed right away. But the the thought of that image stayed with me
throughout the day because it was something I used to looked forward to doing when I made it back home.
And that was to go online and browse for porn and beat my meat.
So that was tough but I've subsided since. My hard ons are sporadic. Haven't tried intercourse
in over a month and not sure it can stay hard while going balls deep. I would be more confident
if I'm at level 9. Maybe a consistent 8. I will take a consistent 8 over a temporary 10.

So I still have work to do but I feel better about my prognosis than i did on day 60.
My antics are not as bad as before in terms of 'acting out' and such. Well, at least I
haven't had any episodes that I can think of because I usually share them here.
So it is quite possible that the depression is receding and I could be somewhere
in the second half of the game. Who knows?

Thanks for asking.

That is some high-level self-assessing there, Viper.

Congrats on your quarter year achievement.

 

[somethingelse]

Viper, congratulations for a start for making it to the big 90!! You've accomplished a great feat, you're making a formidable opponent seem insignificant, and that's how it ought to be. How I want to be, and how you should remain for life after 90.

Shine On Viper

 

[Viper]

BREAKTHROUGH​

So the last post I made, I was at my lovely assistant's house not even thinking I was going to get any heat between the sheets. I was on day 90 and was feeling more content than really good. Certainly happy that I made it that far without PMO because there were some temptations to backslide.

So we're in the sack and we get cozy and I feel the mushroom tip erecting. So far so good but I've gotten that before here and there. I wanted to see how hard I would go.  was hoping for a level 9 density. If I get a 7 or below, all I could settle for is a blowjob and she's not crazy about getting me off without reciprocating at least sometimes. But during my descent, my interest in a real vagina was at an all time low so I wasn't motivated to do anything with her.

I have to share this episode in fine detail because I am constantly reading from others here what they are experiencing or what they expect after 90 days. For some reason, people think it's a magic number so please don't look at the number as
turning point for your reboot. Just so happens that I actually tried to go to the next level of conquering my erectile dysfunction and my overall interest in sex.

So she's stroking me and I'm getting hard. I do the usual foreplay but now I feel more motivated (not just because of my hard on) to do more with her needs to help make this happen. I'm getting head but notice that if she kept that up for 10 more seconds, I would've busted one right away. I'm talking about 30 seconds in. So I decided to hold out so I can save some
of my stiffness for intercourse. Got on top and did my thing. I couldn't believe I was staying hard for like a minute. Before, I couldn't get it hard enough to penetrate. And if I did penetrate, it would limp back down in no time. Very frustrating indeed. And she on top was out of the question!

I'm thinking I was at level 8 for the entire two minutes. That's right folks, I did not last long at all. And I felt like I was having sex for the first or second time in my life. Only this time, I was not embarrassed by the performance. This is an improvement and trust me, she was not complaining. The fact that I even wanted to play with her pussy was a step forward. Yeah, that's how bad it was for me all this time I've been on here. Because I was so far deep into PMO addiction, that not even the porn I liked was getting me off as much or hard as much.

By no means am I recovered so please don't get it twisted. It is still a work in progress but definitely a step forward and a notable entry for the journal because at this phase, it's still kinda tricky. You think to yourself was this a fluke or am
I really getting my mojo back. We shall see.

I would like to also hear from some recoverees what they experienced on the brink of recovery. Or when they started penetrating successfully after a good while on erectile dysfunction. By the way, I didn't need dick pills, thank goodness.

 

[fcjl8]

Congrats Viper on making a solid 90 days and having , nice enjoyable intimacy without medication! Bid progress... right?

Carry on young man!

 

[WiP]

That is great viper Congrats and lets hope it mojo back my friend.

 

[savingmysoul]

Hang in there Viper. 

 

[LTE]

The benefits are starting to accrue.

 

[jstatca]

Hey Viper, thanks for sharing your latest progress. Kudos - you're discipline and perseverance is starting to pay off. I hope I can be as successful as you are becoming!

Thanks for the inspiration.

Cheers.....

 

[Viper]

Hey Viper, thanks for sharing your latest progress. Kudos - you're discipline and perseverance is starting to pay off. I hope I can be as successful as you are becoming!

Thanks for the inspiration.

Cheers.....

certainly Mr. Jovi,
you just keep burning up that Latin dance floor!


LoL, in all seriousness, thanks for the support.

 

[Viper]

Ok, so this is day 100 of my reboot.

Now, I've already reported that I had successful intercourse on day 90. I wanted to also reiterate that it is not a magic number. Everyone's turning point usually has to do with opportunity and chance.
All awhile, you stick to the Reboot program.

So I attempted to had sex the other night. This time, I used dick pills. I know, I know, I'm not crazy about them but I have
a stash and they're not cheap and I might as well put them to some use at least once in a while.
My goal with the dick pills wasn't to get aroused but to see if I could at least get a level 9 hard on.
I want people to know that while you're on the final lap of your reboot, don't expect to be a sex machine.
It's so laughable for me to last only 2 minutes if you knew my history. But it's really like learning to ride a bike
again. What I mean by that is not the technique but it's getting your sex drive back to a reasonable pace.
Sure, I've gotten blowjobs during my reboot but it's not the same as intercourse.
If blowjob is space, than intercourse is the final frontier.

Now don't think i'm laying there with a stop watch but this time around, I lasted a little less than 5 minutes
and I'm not even sure the dick pill was in effect. Not like they haven't worked before. She enjoyed it more than the last time. I probably did get a level 9 but again, it wasn't a consistent level 9. There again,
I'm still training. But this is still a lot more than what I was able to do back in January or before I started rebooting.
I couldn't get it hard enough to penetrate. And she's laying back thinking WTF?

As far as depression goes, I did lose weight and I'm not the only one who noticed but things are looking up. And not just my pecker. It's one of those things you have to fight through while rebooting. YOu'll probably do or say things you don't mean.
You probably can't focus as much. Your self esteem will probably take a hit during the process but it's not going to last forever. There are bad days and good days. I'm not gonna lead you on by saying because I've made some progress with my PIED that there isn't work to be done. Trust me, I wake up everyday with challenges but the good news is, that light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter and brighter day by day.

 

[Wanttobebetter]

Well said Viper. Grab your hat. Winds are blowing and things are changing. Best wishes

 

[WiP]

Viper
Thanks for the update Gives me hope  Congrats on the 100.  Awesome

 

[savingmysoul]

hey viper -

still struggling here as well - 140 days, seems like the hit or miss is sliding toward the miss more lately.  I seem to start get half way and fizzle. Or i get a pretty solid rock, and it fizzles in a couple minutes.  Still frustrating, but better that a couple months ago with no response at all.  Not getting there and/or staying there has been difficult for my wife.

We are looking at me abastaining for a few weeks to see if that helps.

Hope you are doing well.

 

[Viper]

hey viper -

still struggling here as well - 140 days, seems like the hit or miss is sliding toward the miss more lately.  I seem to start get half way and fizzle. Or i get a pretty solid rock, and it fizzles in a couple minutes.  Still frustrating, but better that a couple months ago with no response at all.  Not getting there and/or staying there has been difficult for my wife.

We are looking at me abastaining for a few weeks to see if that helps.

Hope you are doing well.

Wow, I've definitely been there as it's documented.
It's like your dick is teasing you saying look at me, I'm hard and then when you try to put it to use, it deflates.
But the good news is that you are in a better place then you were a few months back as you pointed out.
All we can hope for is improvement even if it's incremental. Have you tried dick pills?
Now, I'm not a fan of them but it seems like you are getting some arousal. You just want a consistent hard on
like everyone else. You want a hard shaft to go balls deep, I get it. I believe it's worth a shot.
Thing is, when you're trying to recover and you're wondering if you're gonna stay hard, anxiety will kick in.
If you use the dick pills a few times with a steady hard on, you may start a routine that your mind will follow.
When your mind follows that, so will your body. Dick pill is not a cure for E.D. but it can get you hard.
Just a little boost to get over your hurdle because it's not like your trying to use the pill at beginning of
your reboot. Hell, chances are it wouldn't work anyway but you're in a more advanced stage where you
are experiencing some stiffness. It's just not staying stiff. By no means does this mean you will have
to use this pill forever.
I can't stress enough how much more mental this is than physical.

Just last night, I got a hard on no problem with my lovely assistant. I wanted to work on my stamina because
my mushroom tip is still sensitive as if I was a virgin. After getting some really good oral, I didn't have enough
in the tank to last long with the intercourse. The race was over as fast as it begun 
So while I am very grateful at the progress I've made, I still don't get hard as granite and my stamina needs
improving. This means that I still have to remain focused because this game isn't over.

 

[fcjl8]

Hi Viper,

I am sorry to read that you are having some degree of ED... I honestly forget that many of the men quitting PMO are doing so with recovery from ED as their main motivation. I definitely have benefited from much larger and firmer erections and longer lasting, I never thought I had ED but the truth is that all that PMO did have an impact on the quality of both erection quality and response.

I hope that your dedication to staying the course on this path will pay off for you sir! You really provide so much great and positive insight and support to so many men here!

 

[Mart71]

[...]
Just last night, I got a hard on no problem with my lovely assistant. I wanted to work on my stamina because
my mushroom tip is still sensitive as if I was a virgin. After getting some really good oral, I didn't have enough
in the tank to last long with the intercourse. The race was over as fast as it begun 
So while I am very grateful at the progress I've made, I still don't get hard as granite and my stamina needs
improving. This means that I still have to remain focused because this game isn't over.

Like a virgin.... Reminds me of a song from ages ago. LOL

Some guys seem to snap back into their former self - some recover slowly. I have been at that point myself and actually enjoyed "learning" things all over again. In hindsight, it felt like a rebirth of my sexuality, rising from the ashes of the flames of porn, which all but killed it. I was thankful for every milestone reached. Thankful for YBOP, thankful for communities like ours, thankful for my beloved partner and last but not least, I am thankful for my own body, for being able to heal itself even from that abuse. Which still feels like a miracle to me, but it is true.

So keep going, step by step you will improve.