Hi there. Not exactly an original title for today's entry, but wanted something I could use regularly so people would know who I am and check out wnat I write, if they're interested.
First a technical question: I've posted a few times in the journal section and each time clicked on 'new topic'. Is that the best way to do it? Or do I end up with each entry being new journal?
Anyway, short and sweet tonight I think. There have been times today, I've been really struggling with cravings. I've been using mindfulness/body awareness exercises to try and calm them, but it's been a bit like trying to stop a magnet sticking to metal. I've found another method really helps when nothing else works. I consider myself a scientist, and study the exact nature of my cravings - how long they last, how long they stop for, when they come back. Taking this objective attitude seems to take me out of my obsession and calm them down.
I think I've also been experiencing a bit of a dopamine crash - mood swings and times when I just have no motivation to do anything. Getting out of bed was hard this morning.
This evening I had a great session with my therapist, and am feeling confidence I can lick this P thing. I am halfway through my first goal of a week without PMO - and plan to set myself increasingly challenging goals after that. With the exception of one 3 year period of abstinence I am pretty sure I have been addicted to P for 26 years, so ultimately would like to get to my birthday in June without PMO. I feel a good cleanout is needed! And it will be a great 40th birthday present to give myself. I plan to set shorter interim goals though, as the dopamine boost from the sense of achieving small goals may be handy....
I hope you are doing well - my heart goes out to anyone with this problem. Be great to hear any response.
All the best,
Will.
First a technical question: I've posted a few times in the journal section and each time clicked on 'new topic'. Is that the best way to do it? Or do I end up with each entry being new journal?
Anyway, short and sweet tonight I think. There have been times today, I've been really struggling with cravings. I've been using mindfulness/body awareness exercises to try and calm them, but it's been a bit like trying to stop a magnet sticking to metal. I've found another method really helps when nothing else works. I consider myself a scientist, and study the exact nature of my cravings - how long they last, how long they stop for, when they come back. Taking this objective attitude seems to take me out of my obsession and calm them down.
I think I've also been experiencing a bit of a dopamine crash - mood swings and times when I just have no motivation to do anything. Getting out of bed was hard this morning.
This evening I had a great session with my therapist, and am feeling confidence I can lick this P thing. I am halfway through my first goal of a week without PMO - and plan to set myself increasingly challenging goals after that. With the exception of one 3 year period of abstinence I am pretty sure I have been addicted to P for 26 years, so ultimately would like to get to my birthday in June without PMO. I feel a good cleanout is needed! And it will be a great 40th birthday present to give myself. I plan to set shorter interim goals though, as the dopamine boost from the sense of achieving small goals may be handy....
I hope you are doing well - my heart goes out to anyone with this problem. Be great to hear any response.
All the best,
Will.