cordy212
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Unfortunately it's also a complete con. Attempting to escape from reality only exasperates the underlying issues. Viewing pornography robs me of my energy and zest for life. It takes away my passion and my drive. I am left a hollow shell of my true self. Pessimistic, selfish and arrogant.
Next time that you get any sort of urge, read this post!
The opposite is true when I live a life free from pornography. I have more energy, passion and drive. I'm a better partner, son, brother and friend. I am unburdened from guilt and shame. I am more connected to myself and the world around me. My life is simply better. Actually more than that, I am a better person.
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Me, you, everyone on this forum and many people who don't even realize yet are far better without P in their lives
This morning I started my journal as normal. I was commenting that I was tired but didn't feel any urge to act out. My brain briefly considered the options available to me but none really gripped me.
In this post you seem to quote your brain as a separate entity to yourself, I understand that we are addicted, me you and most people of these forum, but at the same time you have to treat the brain as a part of your body and you have to respect that you have control over not just your body but also your brain! Your brain may be saying to look at that sexy picture but please don't kid yourself into thinking that the only reason that we relapse is because we can't control it. The fact is that we can control it, we relapse and we learn lessons, then we relapse and learn some more until eventually we get to the point when there is no more to learn and we are comfortable to interact with other people in a natural and amazing way!
I've just reread the paragraph that I just wrote and it seems a bit harsh, but to be honest these are similar words that I say to myself whenever I have relapsed. You are a strong person, and you are definitely capable of overcoming this, all I ask is that you learn at least one lesson from your relapse and apply it to this reboot , I continue to follow your progress and wish you the best of luck, and I really mean that