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And this time I mean it!
- Thread starter drollbot
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joe_ireland
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Don't stress about it Drollbot. 25 days is a lot.
I'd agree with RB15 that it takes a lot of self-honesty to admit that part of you wants to keep the porn. Is that something you feel all of the time or just when you are tired or drained? I think we all experience that to some extent- there's the part of us that wants to quit and the more impulsive, baser part that just doesn't want to give up. Even St Augustine said, "Lord, give me chastity but just not yet." I think when we are tired and drained or depressed the more impulsive part takes over, throws out all our fine ideals and convinces us that we would be happier if we just gave in to temptation. So its a struggle between the two part of ourselves. We have to strengthen the part of ourselves that wants to quit and protect ourselves against those times when the more impulsive part is in control. that's just my tu'pence worth.
I'd agree with RB15 that it takes a lot of self-honesty to admit that part of you wants to keep the porn. Is that something you feel all of the time or just when you are tired or drained? I think we all experience that to some extent- there's the part of us that wants to quit and the more impulsive, baser part that just doesn't want to give up. Even St Augustine said, "Lord, give me chastity but just not yet." I think when we are tired and drained or depressed the more impulsive part takes over, throws out all our fine ideals and convinces us that we would be happier if we just gave in to temptation. So its a struggle between the two part of ourselves. We have to strengthen the part of ourselves that wants to quit and protect ourselves against those times when the more impulsive part is in control. that's just my tu'pence worth.
Day 28,
I am definitely senseing a pattern to my desire for cem and p. Today I could care less for it. Yesterday, it felt like an all consuming need.
This whole addiction feeders on a scale of interest and boredom. If I'm bored with my present circumstance I get careless and start needing the dopamine.
Big changes are coming though. As of July 1st, my contract ends and I'll be unemployed. Not too worried. I welcome the change. As long as I don't have to sit here doing nothing all day.
Peace gentlemen.
I am definitely senseing a pattern to my desire for cem and p. Today I could care less for it. Yesterday, it felt like an all consuming need.
This whole addiction feeders on a scale of interest and boredom. If I'm bored with my present circumstance I get careless and start needing the dopamine.
Big changes are coming though. As of July 1st, my contract ends and I'll be unemployed. Not too worried. I welcome the change. As long as I don't have to sit here doing nothing all day.
Peace gentlemen.
Day 30
it sucks working for a place that expects your job to be nothing but sitting around being bored. I could pay to do absolutely nothing. as a result my brain is scrambling for something to do. I am desperately bouncing like a pinball from one thing to another trying to find something to catch my attention to keep my interest. Above all I do not want CEM and / or p to be my go-to. the crappy thing is I'm done just about everything I could possibly do this morning accept that. Which leaves me with a very difficult situation. That's it I'm taking a short walk outside!
it sucks working for a place that expects your job to be nothing but sitting around being bored. I could pay to do absolutely nothing. as a result my brain is scrambling for something to do. I am desperately bouncing like a pinball from one thing to another trying to find something to catch my attention to keep my interest. Above all I do not want CEM and / or p to be my go-to. the crappy thing is I'm done just about everything I could possibly do this morning accept that. Which leaves me with a very difficult situation. That's it I'm taking a short walk outside!
http://yourbrainonporn.com/tools-for-change
Check out points 3 and 4 on here.
If you can get away with cem/p at work you can just as easily read a book. Its your choice, despite what your brain might be telling you. Under point 4 there are literally at least 50 other things listed that you could do.
Check out points 3 and 4 on here.
If you can get away with cem/p at work you can just as easily read a book. Its your choice, despite what your brain might be telling you. Under point 4 there are literally at least 50 other things listed that you could do.
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Bryan
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Just as RB15 suggested, I replaced a lot of this potential PMO time with reading at work. Of course I'd prefer to simply be productive all day, but if that's what it takes to keep away from PMO/P, then it's a small price to pay. Good luck.
Day 31,
thank you for the suggestions gentlemen, I will take them into consideration.
All Things Considered I'm having a fairly good day. Not too many triggers. got plenty to do plenty of work today, that always helps.
fuel things on my mind is well, things from my past that have nothing to do with P. all the same it is a resentful full memory.
have you lost something that you really really loved and enjoyed? and also live with the knowledge that in all likelihood you will never get it back? then you might have an idea of what it is that I'm feeling right now.
there are others to blame, a few of them would benefit from a physical attitude adjustment. but what possible good would that do? I guess we all deal with fools at one point or another.
have a good day!
thank you for the suggestions gentlemen, I will take them into consideration.
All Things Considered I'm having a fairly good day. Not too many triggers. got plenty to do plenty of work today, that always helps.
fuel things on my mind is well, things from my past that have nothing to do with P. all the same it is a resentful full memory.
have you lost something that you really really loved and enjoyed? and also live with the knowledge that in all likelihood you will never get it back? then you might have an idea of what it is that I'm feeling right now.
there are others to blame, a few of them would benefit from a physical attitude adjustment. but what possible good would that do? I guess we all deal with fools at one point or another.
have a good day!
Day 31,
so an interesting thing happened today. In light of yesterday's post somebody from my past messages me with the possibility of doing what it was that I lost.I find this to be very ironic considering what I was feeling and writing about yesterday. I am leery about this, but also intrigued and hopeful. this requires further investigation. oh by the way no triggers today!
so an interesting thing happened today. In light of yesterday's post somebody from my past messages me with the possibility of doing what it was that I lost.I find this to be very ironic considering what I was feeling and writing about yesterday. I am leery about this, but also intrigued and hopeful. this requires further investigation. oh by the way no triggers today!
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Bryan
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Been a few days since your last post. How are things going, drollbot?