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ssoac

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Hi
I'm 40, I have a wife and a kid.
I know addiction - I've been addicted to gambling - 3 years, drinking - 15 years and smoking - about 20 years. All gone and mostly forgotten.
I'm also addicted to PMO. Have been since I was 14, and have always regarded it as the most "innocent".
Last week I didn't join my family for vacation.. to "work". Spent 4 days binging on porn.

enough of it.

This first post marks my first 24 hrs.
Thought I wasn't gonna make it, but I did.
One part of my mind wants to quit, and another one... doesn't.
But anyway... thats settled. Enough.
 
Blue Bird

Blue Bird

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Hellos SSOAC:

Welcome to our group. We have similar difficulties as you do.  We are all working together to have a better, happier and more present life with our families.  You took the right decision to land here and congratulations for your efforts to stop.  The way is difficult but you will be successful.  It has been also very difficult for me. I am 52 and addicted to masturbation. Porn comes together of course. I have wife and kids also. I have rebooted for more than two weeks and I confess it was very difficult in the beginning, I could not think in something else, but sex.  After this tough time I began to have more controll of my thoughts, "I am learning to put my hands in a different place" and  reduce anxieties. It helps me very much to read the experiences of the others with similar difficulties. I invite you to read them when you feel you need some help to reduce anxiety.  We help each other in this forum and we are happy you  joined the group. If you feel comfortable, tell us more about your story. We would like to read it.
Best regards.
Blue Bird
 
LTE

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You're in the right place. You can break free.
 
fcjl8

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It is not easy at the beginning but the more time that you can spend clean, the more benefits that you enjoy and then progress really starts to feel good.

Don't give up! You are doing a great thing for your family!
 
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Wanttobebetter

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I only have several days here friend, but you are in a good place and among friends who can help. Trust this place and talk to others. Talk, talk, and talk some more. There is help here. Let people here help you. Let them in. It's a rough road but one you won't have to travel alone. Welcome.
 
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ssoac

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Thank you, everyone, for your kind words and support.
My counter is at almost two days, and I'm on my way to meet my family.

I've also decided to raise the bet.. go all in actually.
I'm dropping caffeine, and revisiting my food intake to get rid of the hundred or so pounds overweight, that I gained about five years ago while quitting smoking.

I've never before been a member of support groups, done "X" step programs, or seen a doctor about my addictions.

Joined here after the blood-chilling realization how much the porn obsession is taking away from me.
And I have been blindsided .. for a quarter of a century!!

I'm gonna keep throwing every healthy or otherwise nice thing that I have been neglecting thus far into the challenge.
Cause this is one I'm not gonna lose. I'm actually looking forward to it.

All my best to everyone,
ssoac
 
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ssoac

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3 days in, some episodes of irritability, some headaches..
strange, those are not the withdrawal symptoms I expected
Definitely unpleasant, but not overwhelming.
Moving forward.
 
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ssoac said:
3 days in, some episodes of irritability, some headaches..
strange, those are not the withdrawal symptoms I expected
Definitely unpleasant, but not overwhelming.
Moving forward.
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The first few weeks are unpredictable. Keep in mind, it will get easier in time. Don't give in, this is probably the worst of it.
 
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ssoac

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5 days in, still on track.
There have been no great battles between good and evil, but day 4 felt really exhausting.
The next one was a bit better.

Below the belt - its been unusually quiet. Suppose its normal.. rest is required.

moving forward
 
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ssoac said:
5 days in, still on track.
There have been no great battles between good and evil, but day 4 felt really exhausting.
The next one was a bit better.

Below the belt - its been unusually quiet. Suppose its normal.. rest is required.

moving forward
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Your doing great. Truthfully, the days get easier as they accumulate.
 
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ssoac

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Viper said:
That's all we can do is move forward.
Keep up the good work.
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Than you Viper.

Last couple of days I've been having some urges, and did my best to dissipate them.
And then last night I dreamed about it. And in my dream, I put on some P, sat myself down and started to M..
And that my brain, my good old friend... was very sneaky!!
I did stop my self in the dream, which I consider to be great. But I only did it several minutes in, which I consider not so great.
I had kind of assumed that the struggle would only take place during the waking hours, but apparently its going to be a round the clock job.
Right now, I've no idea how to resist in my sleep. Guess I need to have a little faith.

Day 9, moving forward.
 
LTE

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ssoac said:
Viper said:
That's all we can do is move forward.
Keep up the good work.
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Than you Viper.

Last couple of days I've been having some urges, and did my best to dissipate them.
And then last night I dreamed about it. And in my dream, I put on some P, sat myself down and started to M..
And that my brain, my good old friend... was very sneaky!!
I did stop my self in the dream, which I consider to be great. But I only did it several minutes in, which I consider not so great.
I had kind of assumed that the struggle would only take place during the waking hours, but apparently its going to be a round the clock job.
Right now, I've no idea how to resist in my sleep. Guess I need to have a little faith.

Day 9, moving forward.
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Dreams about P&M seem to be common, especially in the early stages. Just don't act upon them in the waking hours and you'll be fine.
 
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ssoac

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LTE said:
Dreams about P&M seem to be common, especially in the early stages. Just don't act upon them in the waking hours and you'll be fine.
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Yes.. it appears to be so. Some more dreams tonight, this time about browsing porn pics only, no M.
The days though, appear a touch easier to cope with.

Day 10, moving forward.
 
LTE

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It will continue to improve for you as the days add up.
 
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ssoac

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Day 13. Judging from the current state of affairs, I'm most probably experiencing PIED.
And it could have been going on for years, but I was never too far away from P to actually notice.
Well, waddya know..

moving forward.
 
WiP

WiP

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You are doing great.  It does get easier to deal with the day to day and dream urges.  Hang in there
 
Viper

Viper

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Stick to the reboot program.
Keep your mind occupied on constructive things like your family.
That's your rock.
Keep reading journals on here and become inspired as you too will inspire others.
 
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