Hey 53nomorepmo,
I am actually a few years older than you, and going through the reboot process, seriously, for the first time in my life. I have made feeble attempts to cut back or quit porn before, with not much success. Of course, repeated failures due to PIED eventually forced me to try and change. I believe high-speed porn is exponentially more captivating, stimulating, and yes, addictive, than magazines, VHS, DVD formats. No question in my mind about that. I can track back to when porn first started to become a serious problem for me (and my marriage), and it was back about 10 years ago, which is when high-speed intenet became abailable. I had a compulsion to use porn long before that. But, that is the timeframe when I basically realized I preferred porn to a real partner. Porn versus wife = porn wins! That's sick!
I also have no doubt that this is an addiction. People can debate it if they choose. I know what I know.
I have thought about doing just MO without the P. I have tried it. I believe it could be possible, post reboot, to use M as a stress relief tool, if sex with a partner isn't likely to be an option in the future. I know the frequency of sex in my marriage won't be anywhere near what my PMO frequency was, pre-reboot. hell, that was every day, several time s a day, and hours of edging. No wonder I was exhausted all the time! I suspect many others can relate.
But, for now, during the reboot process, I have learned that MO is not good for me. Not yet. I've been on like a 2-week cycle, several time now, PMO free. I end up caving at around the 2 week mark. One of those times, I MO's like 2 or 3 days before the PMO relapse. Chaser effect? Don't know. I can't really relate to the chaser effect, because I've never let any time elapse between sex with a partner and resuming PMO. But, after MO-ing I felt a very strong urge to PMO within a couple of days. So, maybe there is something to it.
Long-term, after a successful reboot (prbably at least 90 days seems to be the standard) I could see a place for MO, without the P, in my life, if there was no hope of a consistently willing partner. And I don't think there's anything wrong with that. We all have to find what works for us. At some point, I would expect that I would prefer sex with a partner to solitary MO. I would also expect that, post reboot, the MO frequency would go way down. No doubt in my mind, if you remove P from the equation, the other two (M&O) will take care of themselves. I just have to get to that place where I am able to reject P consistently, forever. As evidence of my continuous resets, I'm not there yet. One day.
I enjoyed your posts and the helpful replies from the forum.
Stay strong and good luck!