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kopp

Active Member
Im not sure that I get what you mean :p English is not my native language, sometimes I don't understand everything
 

Asianguy

Member
english is not my native language too. I will try to say it again :

I have read around the forum that their is periods that rebooters felt low or almost they didn't have any libido at all. Dead dicks and they had no reaction to girls or stimulations. They don't even want stimulation at that point i think.
So far I don't think I've been to that state.

Day by day my erection quality and libido are jsut getting stronger.
 
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mtaha2015

Guest
Don't ejaculate your precious fluid.
stay strong.
you can do it.
it is all in your head/brain.
 

kopp

Active Member
I edged yesterday. I edged today, then I later masturbated and ejaculated. So... back to day 0. I'm so sorry guys, I deserve a punch in my face...
I fooled myself too much, I was like 'it's not a relapse if I don't O' but fuck, yes it is.
This is stronger than I thought.

I'll fuck this shit. I'll break the addiction. I decide that I stop caring about my libido for now. I know I was stressed - no orgasm so how could I know I still desire girls? Fuck this, this was a stupid mindset - I know my cock works and will work forever as long as I reboot.

Fuck lying to myself. Fuck lying to you guys, I should have associated edging with relapsing and put my counter back to 0 days before.

From NOW :
Only a girl can touch my penis - the only reasons I am allowed to touch it are peeing and shaving
Only a girl can make me ejaculate
I dont edge, I dont look at sexy pictures, I dont find porn substitutes, I keep away from the news (because there are news about sexy celebs etc) - I'm installing a porn blocker right now, I deleted phone contacts of girls that used to sext me and I decide that I will never contact them again, I deleted all my skype contacts then my skype account
I dont play videogames - I'm uninstalling Counter Strike right now
I keep track of my morning woods

All of this will make me stronger, more masculine, healthier and happier and will give me rock hard erections. :)


After 7 days I already noticed benefits on my erections. I was 90% hard instead of the usual 70-80% and my dick looked bigger haha

I must go back to the gym more seriously, with a real plan and a better diet, I'm not giving my best at the moment!
 
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mtaha2015

Guest
get back on horse.
don't give up.
try again.
get more hard this time.
 

kopp

Active Member
Thank you for the motivation man.

I just masturbated once, I don't feel that bad. I'm not feeling like shit like before. I'm just a bit bored.

I'll grow stronger. :)
 

BunnyBoy2015

Active Member
Hi kopp,

That's a shame you relapsed. Have you read up enough on the reasons to stop. What are your reasons for stopping? There are going to be days where you get worse, you go through a withdrawl and you are going to want to make sure you still function, but you must resist the urges. There are going to be days when you feel sexually frustrated, that is all part of it, but you must rid your life of PMO.

Good luck for the future.
 

kopp

Active Member
There are going to be days where you get worse, you go through a withdrawl and you are going to want to make sure you still function

Yeah fuck that... I edged and then the need to ejaculate was so strong, my balls were hurting, I couldn't get them out of my hands... it was stupid to even start looking at pictures...

The effects I suffer from PMO are :
lack of energy, lack of libido
low confidence, suicidal thoughts
procrastination
becoming antisocial and paranoid
stopping going to the gym and not eating enough (=> losing muscles I worked hard to get)

I stop because :
porn is shit, you have to make a choice between real girls and porn. You either fuck hot girls or watch them on a screen. I decide to fuck them for real and I will fuck them beast mode. I'd rather be the guy you watch in movies than the guy watching the movies.
I want to better myself and for that I need all my level of energy and testosterone to their max.
It's an addiction, nothing normal, nothing real, nothing good for me.
I want girls. I want success with girls and I want a girlfriend. I need to be hungry for that. I also want to make friends.
I want to be free.
I want to be more confident, more masculine, more motivated, healthier, happier, and I want to have rock hard erections.

And now, the kopp rules :
I don't touch my penis.
Only a girl can make me ejaculate.
I don't edge, I don't look at pictures, I don't look at porn substitutes.
I go outside at least once a day - for no reason, even if I'm alone.
I plan my weekends so I have something to wait for and focus on during the week.
 

BunnyBoy2015

Active Member
You need to create a vision for your life that is potent enough to carry you through the difficult times in between. If your vision isn't strong enough you will fail in between. Good luck!
 

firstofall22

Active Member
Stay strong, buddy!! We can do this!

Maybe just work out more like you did in the past?! Get back your awesome muscles and get confident, the girls will certainly recognize that, too!
And look in the future, not in the past, go forward, forget what you did and think of the fact that life will soon be GREAT, because YOU will be GREAT!

 

kopp

Active Member
MountainSummit said:
You need to create a vision for your life that is potent enough to carry you through the difficult times in between. If your vision isn't strong enough you will fail in between. Good luck!

I can't count the times I took a piece of paper and wrote my life vision and totally forgot about both my life vision and the piece of paper 24 hours later.
You're 100% right, but it just never worked for me this way.

I need more to know myself better - and then the vision will be more realistic, more aligned with what I am than to think about my life vision for the 104th time.
Do you have an advice about that? an opinion? How did you make it work?

firstofall22 said:
Stay strong, buddy!! We can do this!

Maybe just work out more like you did in the past?! Get back your awesome muscles and get confident, the girls will certainly recognize that, too!
And look in the future, not in the past, go forward, forget what you did and think of the fact that life will soon be GREAT, because YOU will be GREAT!

Fuck yes. I'm stressed about finding a job, this shit is paralyzing me. I don't workout because I tell myself "better use the work out time to find a job, and when you'll have one you'll go back to gym" and FUCK I don't even use that time to find a job, I just relax. This is pointless, in the end I didnt work out nor find a job.

At least I'm 2 days in after being 8 days in, this is a correct start. I feel better already.
 

BunnyBoy2015

Active Member
kopp said:
I need more to know myself better - and then the vision will be more realistic, more aligned with what I am than to think about my life vision for the 104th time.
Do you have an advice about that? an opinion? How did you make it work?

I listen to a guy called Tony Robbins, he is a success coach from America. Here is an audiobook he has done about creating a vision of the future you want, or what he calls a magnificent obsession... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7hYvmZq4Ogg I think that describes it pretty well. The keys to making this work is to create lots of goals you want, then choose the ones you really want to achieve in one years time, then to keep writing about these goals every day for at least a month so they become engrained in your mind. They have to be goals that really inspire you, not just ones you think you should have, the more they move you, the bigger the actions you will take towards achieving them.

I hope you like the audiobook, he's an interesting guy, a bit of a one off, but inspiring.
 

firstofall22

Active Member
Kopp, you need to do more. And even when it makes no fucking sense at all like reading a random book or getting out and do something voluntary, which would be a great way to make you feel good, because you have done something useful, you gain fulfillment.

You can work out nearly every day, if you want. Make a nutrition plan and work hard for some gains.

Call your best friends and mates, just 5 maximum and meet up with them, drink something and talk, get social - it gives back warmth you have losen by watching fucking disgusting porn.

Fulfillment, getting in shape, warmth... all these things let your self esteem grow and grow!

Tip: If you can afford, pay a headhunter to find a job for you. If you're not, don't pick the internet to pieces, it won't get better. At the end you probably find yourself wanking to some fucking porn again just because it's one klick away. The occasion will come when you stumble over a job offer.

Stay strong
 

kopp

Active Member
thanks so much guys! :) i'll answer you later in the day..

I just wanted to say... to shout...

I woke up with a morning wood :D haha that seems stupid but I'm so proud!
 

kopp

Active Member
MountainSummit, I know Tony Robbins, I already read 2 of his books and watched several videos.
It helped me at the time. But somehow I lose fate in all of this. I read a lot of self development books, watched a lot of videos, participated in forums... it surely done me some good. But the output is the same, I'm still an internet and porn addict, and I'm still here being totally passive about finding a job and the important stuff I have to do. Deep inside me I'm still afraid of making important decisions.

Im so negative right now that I don't believe in Tony Robbins anymore, even if it helped me a lot in the past... fuck I have to change that loser mindset. I used to like victory.

Thanks for the advice, I just know that if I listen to the book now I won't apply it. :/

firstofall22 good advices again... I put working out and seeing friends aside for the moment to make free time to find a job.. the result is that I stay alone at home and procrastinate... damned I hate myself in those moments

I have to switch something in my diet too because Im always eating and always angry... endless vicious circle, I don't know what Im doing wrong
 

firstofall22

Active Member
Just don't procrastinate!! You have to see a progress in what you're doing, that's the only way you can have nearly the same effect as dopamine has on your brain when watching porn. You need success!
 

kopp

Active Member
Yesterday was a bad day I want to forget.

Day 4 almost done. Day 5 starting in a few hours. I feel better and better everyday. :)

Today is going to be an awesome day!
 

kopp

Active Member
I only had 1 relapse in the last 13 days and no relapse since 4 days, this is pretty cool. I feel good because I already think less about sex, I don't crave going on xxx websites etc.

I only had one urge yesterday because I started being overly stressed and sad about myself. I wanted a pleasurable release, a dopamine rush to get rid of the stress.
I took a cold shower and focused on not touching myself (kopp''s rule #1 :p) and, when I felt better, I approached a girl over Facebook. I fucked up a little bit in the end, otherwise it was good and boosted my confidence.
I don't even care that I failed in the end. Yes she is pretty, yes I might never have sex with her, and thats bad for her because she will never know how much pleasure I can give to a girl.

The good thing is that I wasn't even horny, and I didn't really want sex, I just wanted pleasure and found other ways to get some.

I know I'm on the right track. I think in a more and more realistic way of approaching girls in real life. I still have approach anxiety but I'm more calm than in the past, I only lack a little something.

My mindset toward girls is changing slowly in a positive way.

So my actual best streak is 6 days. I'm 1h from being on day 5. I will beat my best streak soon.

Oh and I feel like masturbation is useless. I can get real girls.
 

firstofall22

Active Member
Hey kopp, my mate!

Yes that's right, fuck it! Fuck this addiction!! Your mind fucks around with your brain and you don't know what to think, guess what these are symptoms a junkie has when taking fucking cocaine or heroine. We are all junkies and every stimulation we give our brain, throws us back in our reboot!

You have good plans, delete the fucking soft porn on your social media and stuff. Get in shape, make a low carb diet and define your body, get in the gym and stop wasting time thinking about the reboot. It only takes you back to porn again because you think of old times.

 
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