jnv
Well-Known Member
Day 41:
I've managed to stay away from my d*ck since last Monday and I thought about sex maybe once.
Today started pretty bad and even though motivation/energy level wasn't very high,I was unusually horny compared to the rest of the week. I still managed to do my 1h+ work out session + studied languages after shower. After this quite productive morning, I was a bit bored since I hadn't planned anything particular. I decided to watch a movie I wasn't very into and then that scene triggered and urge. Before I realised it, I was googling what you know and peeked at Porn (well it was more than just peeking...) my attempts to just close the browser and leave failed, some time passed and I egded once. Some more time passed before I managed to redirect my mind from P to a journal from reddit/Nofap I saved (I've got some motivational journals saved I swore to read before I slip) and then I cut everything.
This day was horrible (probably has been the hardest one since I started my journal), I've never been so horny during the whole day and my workout/cold shower didn't calm me down at all. Hopeufully, reading the journal helped my refocus and I could redirect my energy => I took my bike and went for a long ride.
Stopping both PMO + my intense videogaming dependance seems to be a bit violent for my brain. Damn, thinking how I could have ruined my 40 day streak makes me feel really stupid and mad, I'm gonna go to bed to end this horrible day and hope tomorrow will be better!
I've managed to stay away from my d*ck since last Monday and I thought about sex maybe once.
Today started pretty bad and even though motivation/energy level wasn't very high,I was unusually horny compared to the rest of the week. I still managed to do my 1h+ work out session + studied languages after shower. After this quite productive morning, I was a bit bored since I hadn't planned anything particular. I decided to watch a movie I wasn't very into and then that scene triggered and urge. Before I realised it, I was googling what you know and peeked at Porn (well it was more than just peeking...) my attempts to just close the browser and leave failed, some time passed and I egded once. Some more time passed before I managed to redirect my mind from P to a journal from reddit/Nofap I saved (I've got some motivational journals saved I swore to read before I slip) and then I cut everything.
This day was horrible (probably has been the hardest one since I started my journal), I've never been so horny during the whole day and my workout/cold shower didn't calm me down at all. Hopeufully, reading the journal helped my refocus and I could redirect my energy => I took my bike and went for a long ride.
Stopping both PMO + my intense videogaming dependance seems to be a bit violent for my brain. Damn, thinking how I could have ruined my 40 day streak makes me feel really stupid and mad, I'm gonna go to bed to end this horrible day and hope tomorrow will be better!