feeding the right wolf

treetop

treetop

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no benzos for over a week now.

sleep has started to return although I question the quality of sleep im getting.

started back at work today, quitting pmo is certainly not easy but at least im only an occasional user.

I fatigue easily and I also have a groin strain injury on inside of left leg and I have a big bruise there.

my head is full of junk and negitave thoughts, my psychology is weighing me down, I need to train my brain to be stronger and healthier so I have more self esteem and more motivation...
 
treetop

treetop

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no fap, no computer games, no more drugs, no more caffeine,

this is how I want to be, drug free, just me, plain old me.
 
treetop

treetop

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still not been on the playstation for weeks now, although I have relapsed quite a bit,

im determined to give it a go I have lot's of support in place and im going to use the tools I have to help myself, I know iv goto make lots of healthy habits like yoga, bodyblade, playing guitar, meditation, reading scripture, praying, listening to hypnosis recording's to become porn free, reading notes iv wrote to myself for when im struggling with triggers with a list of healthy exercisers to do instead of fap, theres no excuse for me iv goto do it this time.....

its been one day so far. I really hope I can make it this time guys. I just want to get past 2 weeks and see if there is any improvement, hopefully il have some positives to report.... good luck guys.

 
treetop

treetop

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2 days and im feeling pretty good considering, it good to be on here and to be able to look back and reflect on my past experience's.

its great that we can support and encourage each other here :)
 
treetop

treetop

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well im back on track, im feeling a little bit better than usual, I don't quite know why, maybe its all the extra exercise.

I will choose the right and I will get through this difficult time in my life.
 
treetop

treetop

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Feeling better today, more positive

have an updated list in times of need to help me through.... I will not give in..
 
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pinkerton

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Hang in there treetop. Keep your focus on the good things you want in your life and the actions you need to take to get them.  Keep up the positive attitude - doing good :)
 
treetop

treetop

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Thanks for your support !! your doing a great job pinkerton :)

Feeling better today as virus seems to be clearing up and I just hope it stays that way as it's been a thorn in my side for weeks.

im glad iv made it to 4 days and im feeling stronger mentally the list i made is really helping me and i read it everytime im triggered or need to read it

well iv got plenty to be getting on with so keep up the good work guys and choose the right :)

 
treetop

treetop

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Today has been lonely, iv really had to battle with myself mentally... iv resisted the the thought that leads to acton that leads to acting out.

iv looked twice at a few girls today and normally I would just resist to even look.. how do I change my desire so I don't want to look??

im glad im clean and I have not viewed any porn or acted out, I just hope things get better as iv struggled a bit today...

I wont give in.... not this time...
 
treetop

treetop

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Not feeling the best iv ever felt today but im not going to give up.

10 days :)

So far today has been a killer...  iv been really depressed and feel as though I cant face anything... I can feel some positive change tho, a kind of cleaner feeling on the inside.. I hope and pray things will get better from here as I strive to push and stay clean and somehow get through this madness....
 
treetop

treetop

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what can I say.... iv done a bit of juicing, and its made me realise that I need to be more disciplined.

im still on track and haven't fell off.... in fact im feeling better than yesterday and I feel I have the strength to get things done today.

I will not give in, I will stay clean :)

kept myself busy today and got plenty of exercise and sun, and been helping out wherever I can, hopefully I can recharge my batteries and have another good day tomorrow...
 
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