Loving_Mary
Active Member
FlyPhoenix said:Hi LM,
Long time, I've been off this forum for a while because I was relapsing quite a bit and trying by all means to stay off the Internet. But found it so much easier to go to youtube and social media. There is benefit to coming here, for sure.
Sorry to hear about the recent relapse, I had one recently as well, about two weeks ago, it was bad and scary. The challenge righth now for me, like you say, is staying happy/positive without having to go to youtube to watch hours and hours of funny videos as I hold myself over until my next P relapse.
I was talking to a friend in recovery the other day and as I was talking, I realise I was doing exactly what I was advising him about, which is using something outside myself to change how I feel on the inside. It's one of the most challenging thing for me, as I remember being totally addicted to television from childhood, but peace and happiness need to come from inside. It isn't easy, and sometimes we need help, some more than others, but we all struggle towards the same goal.
Take care man, hope it works out..
thanks Fly
I'm happy to hear about you.
I believe that when people stop comming to the forum: or things are going really well, or really bad.
Now that you mention that, for the last 2 weeks I've being doing this Youtube and Tv diet and it has made me realize how much time I was spending on that, thus how empty is my life.
I think it's a good step cause that broadens the awarness of problems in life which are one of the triggers of addictions.
I trully didn't realise I was spending so much of my free time on tv and youtube.
Now I've narrowed it to 4,5 hours per week without counting religion and no fap shows, although maybe I should just keep it 4,5 hours in plane total hours. It worries me a bit cause I don't even know what I'll do if I stick to that.
Take care