After my sexual rewiring last Saturday (first sex of reboot), I have struggled most of the week with thoughts of chasing it by having more sex with someone (undefined). I had not expected this. I had expected the chaser effect, but I thought it would be for MOing, but oddly, that didn?t happen. Weird, cause I?ve been so obsessed with MO during my reboot.
The chaser effect for more sex is officially over. Today, I do not feel sexual at all even though I have MW everyday. Partial flatline? Who knows? I really didn?t experience much of a flatline after I quit PMO/MO.
Funny, my addict mind had such big plans about my next sexual escapade. It had it all figured out - no trolling Scruff (Scruff bad) for hookups, no siree. It had narrowed the search to a couple of guys in one of my AA meetings (shhh, don?t tell anyone!). All I can say is I?m glad my wiser prefrontal cortex had already decided to do nothing with these feelings.
Speaking of Scruff - while I was securing a coffee date with a guy on OKCupid, I noticed the Scruff app. So, I took a little harmless peek the other night. There was no thrill in it and no dopamine rush. Just the same old guys (ok, there were a few new ones) when I did the local search. Then, I exited. I think I had been reinforced by reading recently of Phase2?s Scruff experiences. I used to spend (waste!) so much time on that app - to the point where my thumb would get irritated from all the swiping.
Haven?t tried the cold shower, yet? Try it, trust me, it?s amazing.
The chaser effect for more sex is officially over. Today, I do not feel sexual at all even though I have MW everyday. Partial flatline? Who knows? I really didn?t experience much of a flatline after I quit PMO/MO.
Funny, my addict mind had such big plans about my next sexual escapade. It had it all figured out - no trolling Scruff (Scruff bad) for hookups, no siree. It had narrowed the search to a couple of guys in one of my AA meetings (shhh, don?t tell anyone!). All I can say is I?m glad my wiser prefrontal cortex had already decided to do nothing with these feelings.
Speaking of Scruff - while I was securing a coffee date with a guy on OKCupid, I noticed the Scruff app. So, I took a little harmless peek the other night. There was no thrill in it and no dopamine rush. Just the same old guys (ok, there were a few new ones) when I did the local search. Then, I exited. I think I had been reinforced by reading recently of Phase2?s Scruff experiences. I used to spend (waste!) so much time on that app - to the point where my thumb would get irritated from all the swiping.
Haven?t tried the cold shower, yet? Try it, trust me, it?s amazing.