Day 18 - 25
Hello everyone!
I've had a fantastic time skiing
I didn't feel any urge whatoever to watch porn during this week.
Anyway, I feel that my sexual drive has increased a lot in the last few days and sometimes I would like to masturbate.
Especially the evening we came back from the mountains was difficult as I was very tired and a bit stressed too coming back to "normal life". I managed not to masturbate, so I'm still in hard mode, but I did chat with come girls on whatsapp, tinder and wechat about non-sexual themes.
I feel especially Tinder is not good as sometimes these girls have rather explicit poses that raise my heart beat.
So in the next days I will try to abandon these idle chats.
My body would like to have sex with a girl with whom I had an affair and who would always be available to me if I only wanted.
But I will stick to hard mode for at least 90 days.
However, I might see this girl just to kiss her and cuddle her, I really feel very alone sometimes as I still have no intimacy at all with my partner and probably never will. I know it would be cheating (again) on my partner, but I really can't see at the moment another solution. I just need tenderness and love, not sex.
I'll see what I'll manage to do, but anyhow I will stay PMO-free and orgasm-free for the foreseeable future.
I'm happy to be back here, I'll read all your threads when I have time.
Keep going and never give up!