Gabriel1960
Active Member
I'm still amazed at the vast resources available here for recovery.
I'm currently displaying the cycle: ....strength, setting goals, stress, isolation, fall, shame, get up........
Right now I'm in the "strength, and setting goals" phase.
Before long (I'm guessing about two weeks) I'll be convinced that I never had a problem with PMO. Why did I make such a big deal about it? Just don't think about it! Then comes the inevitable work related stress, I'll feel rejected, then alone, and then BAM! I make the decision to engage in a PMO session. (Why was I avoiding PMO in the first place? There's nothing wrong with PMO. Stop being such a prude!) Then comes the shame. Then the whole cycle starts all over again......
I'm guessing the weakest link in this cycle is the "I make a decision to engage in a PMO session" phase. What happens when I don't choose PMO? Back to facing reality. Find other outlets for work related stress.
Exercise. Meditation. Vacation. Time off. Hobbies. Time with Spouse. See my Therapist. Live a sane life. Find healthy self enriching excitement.
I need to seek out healthy, self-enriching excitement.
It doesn't have to match the excitement of PMO. But adrenaline and dopamine it must provide. I tried marathon running, but I blew out my Achilles. What's next?
Gabriel
I'm currently displaying the cycle: ....strength, setting goals, stress, isolation, fall, shame, get up........
Right now I'm in the "strength, and setting goals" phase.
Before long (I'm guessing about two weeks) I'll be convinced that I never had a problem with PMO. Why did I make such a big deal about it? Just don't think about it! Then comes the inevitable work related stress, I'll feel rejected, then alone, and then BAM! I make the decision to engage in a PMO session. (Why was I avoiding PMO in the first place? There's nothing wrong with PMO. Stop being such a prude!) Then comes the shame. Then the whole cycle starts all over again......
I'm guessing the weakest link in this cycle is the "I make a decision to engage in a PMO session" phase. What happens when I don't choose PMO? Back to facing reality. Find other outlets for work related stress.
Exercise. Meditation. Vacation. Time off. Hobbies. Time with Spouse. See my Therapist. Live a sane life. Find healthy self enriching excitement.
I need to seek out healthy, self-enriching excitement.
It doesn't have to match the excitement of PMO. But adrenaline and dopamine it must provide. I tried marathon running, but I blew out my Achilles. What's next?
Gabriel