achilles heel said:
I'd like to pick up that point. Do you use any protection on your phone/laptop? Maybe protecting the web browser at your phone to manually prevent you from directly accessing to porn might help. The way to porn on a smartphone is way too easy and a threat to us in situations we wouldn't expect. I use to switch off images at my browser during hard times, just to give me the advantage of having to make 5 extra clicks before being able to watch porn... these seconds might help, because one has time to think again before getting triggered.
Nice catch!! Yas, I actually don't use a smartphone anymore. If extremely desperate, my dumb phone
can access some poor stuff, but I'm under the impression that if I get desperate enough, my healthy habits were already shot, and that I can always find a way if I really want to. I also don't browse the web on my phone, saving any necessary browsing for a time when I can do it safely on my laptop. As for my laptop, I use it for recovery work so I believe that I have to learn how to use it in a balanced way since it's key for recovery. Thus the time limit I put on non-productive activities.
So... I've definitely taken major steps to reduce the possibilities, lol. Doesn't mean exceptions don't come up, though. And that's what I need to be more careful about, say, 2 weeks from now. For example, in Mexico I brought along a spare smartphone to take pictures with. Of course, this smartphone also gets wi-fi, and since I'm not used to how that feels to have it, my mind went wild. I should've thought through the possibilities and been wiser about that.
Day 4 - Solid Sunday
Getting Current
Today was real good. Check off nearly everything on the routine. I didn't call any group buddies but I'll pick that back up tomorrow. Got good exercise, good spiritual stuff, played some games, made my first healthy fruit smoothie ever, and hoping to keep experimenting and making some good healthy drinks that way. No cravings I don't think. Just a great mix of routine and recreation.
Learning & Expanding
I listened to Tony Litster talk about the Body a bit today. He mentioned that sometimes we really push ourselves and become so dependent on stimulants and forcing our way through stress and busy situations that we need to take more time to do things like this: take just 7 minutes, set a timer if you want, to let yourself
feel whatever it is that you feel, whether its exhaustion, depression, anxiety, whatever. But just
feel it. And then once it's done, get up and shake it off. Our natural bodies go through cycles throughout the day of activity and rest, but sometimes we just down more caffeine or play mental games to avoid that cycle, instead of just resting. When we do that, it's a violation of natural law, and leads to a greater crash, a less healthy lifestyle, and the brain might just end up craving that full kick that'll make everything all "better". Definitely some food for thought. Om nom nom.
-siphus