Hi, PMOVictory!
I'm glad I found this site and people like you, with so much faith in the Lord and willingness to strike out!
I am a Christian too and rely on the merits of the redeeming power of Our Lord Jesus. He has done marvellous things in my life and has helped me a lot through my struggles, including with PMO.
"Once an addict, always an addict" - for some time this statement also bothered me, but when I read it through the lenses of 2 Corinthians 12:9 (?My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.?), I could understand that God uses our weaknesses to teach us great lessons and show how much we need Him, and how close we need to be to Him, if we want to be successful in our lives.
The next teaching comes from The Book of Mormon, One More Witness of Christ:
27 And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.
Again, we learn that our weaknesses can be used to remind us that through humbleness, faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, and honest and hardwork we can become better people than we are!
Since I gave up trying to control the PMO beast by myself and let Heavenly Father help me, I too have found strength never ever imagined before, and what is best, I have been (just like you) able to stand as a witness that HE can do whatever HE wants to do, if I humbly ask HIM to help me.
Let's move onward! There are still many blessings to receive - but the greatest of all, to me, is the presence of my God in my life!!!
Love you, man!
Stay strong and receive the blessings!