You just gotta keep trying and allow your wife to get all the toxicity out of her system. As long as you don't relapse, you keep listening and allow her emotions to come out without reacting badly to them, you are providing a foundation for recovery. That can be hard sometimes - people can get tired of being the "bad guy" and then decide to defend themselves by going on childish counterattacks to relieve the sense of guilt. I'm not saying you have done that, but that can sneak up on you so just keep a watch out for that reaction in yourself. It's one of the ways the brain can try to deal with guilt.
Stay level, keep listening. Eventually the situation will shift from guilt/blame/shame to just processing the new reality: making the best decisions for the future, being there for each other, remaining open and transparent, calming emotions, finding new joy. Rebuilding the trust. She loves you man, she will get past this if you stay the course and be the man you know you can be. She's not going to trust you around females for a while, just accept that and don't bemoan it. Just imagine how you want this to look in 5-10 years - work towards that. It's a gradual process. The bad days will get fewer and further between as long as you stay very stable and calm and don't give her anything new to worry about. There will be spontaneous trouble spots, but you can still have fun along the way - it's not all doom and gloom. Take the happiness whenever you can. Don't waste too much time on guilt - focus on accountability. With guilt the focus is on you, with accountability the focus is on your partner, your relationship and repairing the damage you've caused. You'll still feel the guilt, but focus your thoughts on the accountability. That's what causes the actual change and healing and that's what will rebuild her trust in you.
It really seems like you're on the right track though. Keep going and good luck!
Stay level, keep listening. Eventually the situation will shift from guilt/blame/shame to just processing the new reality: making the best decisions for the future, being there for each other, remaining open and transparent, calming emotions, finding new joy. Rebuilding the trust. She loves you man, she will get past this if you stay the course and be the man you know you can be. She's not going to trust you around females for a while, just accept that and don't bemoan it. Just imagine how you want this to look in 5-10 years - work towards that. It's a gradual process. The bad days will get fewer and further between as long as you stay very stable and calm and don't give her anything new to worry about. There will be spontaneous trouble spots, but you can still have fun along the way - it's not all doom and gloom. Take the happiness whenever you can. Don't waste too much time on guilt - focus on accountability. With guilt the focus is on you, with accountability the focus is on your partner, your relationship and repairing the damage you've caused. You'll still feel the guilt, but focus your thoughts on the accountability. That's what causes the actual change and healing and that's what will rebuild her trust in you.
It really seems like you're on the right track though. Keep going and good luck!