TryingHarder
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It's like I've moved to a better house in a better neighborhood...
I love a good analogy, and this one is exellent.
It's like I've moved to a better house in a better neighborhood...
Great point! I'm going to do my best to seek that opportunity so I can do more than just "get by" in my down time, and perhaps come out feeling accomplished and grateful for the opportunity.it can also be a wonderful opportunity to focus on something that's been languishing in your life!
Appreciate the check in @DungalefHow's it going, @Warhawk88?
Isn't that great? We always thought we needed porn to get through life, but we don't, and now we know!Last time I PMO or MO was in June. Good riddance.
We always thought we needed porn to get through life, but we don't
Bro - you have inspired me to start my own blog - keep it up. P.S what is PMO and MO? I am looking forward to the day of feeling like how you are feeling - confident and in love with your girlDay 139
Going to be a little straightforward and mildly graphic, so feel free to bypass reading if that's an issue.
I've had the opportunity to have some really great sex this week. I'm battling PE a bit, but that's ok, I honestly think I just need to get into the right groove and level of comfortability and regularity to level that out. The only real solution seems to be to have more sex to grow my own confidence and comfortability, and that's a project I can get behind . I think I'm overstating this, though, if I'm honest. I know how to work my groove to get past the "blow my load" stage of initial excitement and do work, but it would be nice to be able to contain that excitement right out of the gate, if that makes sense.
What I can say is that I am having less and less troubles getting hard at this point. Lately, I've been able to get hard as a rock when I need to. Sometimes it's even surprising to me. To add, I have had instances where I've orgasmed, and stayed hard for some time afterwards, instead of just deflating like a spent balloon. I can tell I'm still healing, but I'm very happy with where I'm at, at this point.
Beyond just talking about my dick, my relationship is continuing to strengthen every day. My girl is getting more comfortable with initiating sex with me, and has been more sexually adventurous. I've always been the initiator, and will likely always be the lead on that, but in the past, when she's had needs, she would be less likely to initiate with me because she knew I wouldn't be "in the mood" or have some excuse as to why I couldn't perform, etc. With the improvements I'm making, and the open discussion on my reboot, we've been able to get into it more freely, and at nearly any time. I have to imagine most men who have had PIED know the anxiety I'm talking about when it comes time to have sex, knowing you're going to underperform because you recently beat off, or just can't get aroused, or whatever. That anxiety is no longer present. It's truly freeing. Of course, this doesn't mean I'm any sort of sex machine (LOL), not even close, it just means I can have regular sexual experiences with my partner on a consistent and normal basis. This freedom has removed a very noticeable layer of tension from both of us, and allowing us to strengthen our relationship more and more on a physical and emotional level.
Anyway. I'm just happy to be where I am, and am looking forward to every new and positive improvement along the way. Porn really is one of the worst things ever. It's amazing to feel how different and great life is without it, even at such a relatively early stage of recovery.