Day 182 -- Well had sex today. Puts and takes honestly but overall have to admit it was pretty positive! So I didn't need Viagra at all (like I needed in the past), I was able to get hard, and I finished (first time I've ever finished having sex) to cowgirl. Honestly came within like a min of having sex too lol. So pretty big signs of progress here. Now on the flip side, it definitely wasn't 100% by any stretch. I wasn't hard the entire time and definitely got soft a bunch, so definitely a ways to go. I think I really need to rewire honestly but this was a one-off total luck encounter
I really do need to find a steady girl to rewire with. On other stuff, I can definitely keep working out (cardio is great for erections) / losing weight (another big one) which I'll do. Maybe even throw in kegels. But more time would be good as it's still only been 6 months (though VERY strong signs of progress -- when I first started even with viagra I could barely get hard!). I'm finally comfortable saying that my brain is well past the 50% healed point with confidence, though who knows how much past that point (could be 55% or could be 75%, I dunno)
Overall hard to say I feel victorious or anything given it wasn't 100% or even 90% (my recent erections to MO also a bit weaker though still stronger vs MO erections I had prior to what I experienced in past week or so). If there's anything I've learned on the process it's ebbs and flows, gotta roll with the punches and take it slow